Something To Say

I don’t actually know if I have anything to say.  I’ve been thinking on and off about what Melanie said to me last night about the things I said in here about her boyfriend.  I can understand she doesn’t want people coming to conclusions about him before they’ve even met him.  That isn’t fair of anyone to do by any standards.  But I also don’t think it was fair of her to make a point of stating that I should write in this for myself and not worry about what she or anyone else is going to think, and then say that I had no business writing about them in an entry.

I told her I was sorry that I hurt her with what I said, and that I didn’t mean for it to sound like I was judging him unfairly.  But I’m not going to apologize for writing my feelings, my worries, or my opinions.  She said I had no right to write about them, and perhaps she has a point.  But what about anyone else?  Heck, what about her?  She writes about other people.  She makes them public entries so anyone can go in and read them.  No, I don’t like it when I see something less than flattering about myself, and I even wrote about one such case earlier in this diary.  But why is it not right to write about what I feel?

We can argue back and forth till the end of time about the "none of your business" issue.  Whether it’s my business or not really has no bearing on the situation, though.  No, her relationship isn’t my business.  That’s why I didn’t say something stupid like, "Well, even though I know nothing about him, she should dump this guy, cuz obviously, he smokes and drinks, he’s worthless."  No.  That’d be just plain careless, cruel, and heartless.  Even though I hate smoking and drinking, there are many people who do those things who have a great deal of worth.

Okay, I’m talking to Jill, and have completely lost my train of thought as far as this entry goes . . .

Well, I’ll just write more later.

Bye. 🙂 🙂 🙂

–Notes–

ok, your phantom of the diary is kinda freaking me out. i thought it was an ADMIRER… not a psycho. no offense bud, but its kinda scary. its a nice thought, but its kind of creepy. anyways, both of you take it easy!
–lis