Once Again, I’ve Lost My Freedles

The Freedles. It was something Dolly and I made up the summer before my junior year. We’d decided, hey wouldn’t it be cool if Dolly, myself, Jason, and Ryan formed a Beatle-like band and called ourselves the Freedles? I don’t know how we came up with that name, but we did. And we felt that it really could work, too, because Jason played piano, Ryan, and I played guitar, and Dolly wanted to play drums. Yeah, she’d be the Ringo-oid. I was the John-oid. And I would’ve put Ryan as the Paul type, but now… Reverse it. But there was a problem. I didn’t feel that Ryan was close enough to any of us. I wanted him to be the fourth person, but he really wasn’t close enough to me for a long time. Then, everything with Jason and his mom happened. And later on, though I’d reconciled with Jason, Dolly and I blew apart. But, just recently, in fact, I’d said to someone, maybe Mike, that I felt I had my Freedles back. Ryan and I have grown a lot closer over time, though I can’t help feeling like we’re drifting apart since I never see him anymore due to his work/school schedule. (Even though he says he’ll be free after a semester is over, he still says that he’s working on school stuff!!! Eurgh!!) “Eurgh?” That’s a funky word… Anyway, though. I don’t know. I mean, this thing with Jason is just so stupid! I mean, he insists, in those recent notes, and on Monday night, that he never meant to hurt me or Mike. Yet, with anyone else, including me, the next words out of our mouth would be, “I’m sorry if I have.” Yet from him… nothing. He either thinks he has nothing to apologize for, or he has no experience giving apologies. Which is more likely? ::Shrugs:: Damned if I know. I did enough speculating on reactions he could have, counters that I could have, and counter-reactions to that he could have yesterday. Heck, even a couple counter-to-his-counter reactions. Except I realized that I couldn’t do it, because it would make this entire thing obsolete. On the upside, though, I’ve considered every angle that I possibly can, and made my decision. I know what I have to do. I’m sorry that he’s not with me. But in this case, it is a definite thing of, “If you’re not with us, you’re against us.”

“What have a got myself into?””The adventure of a lifetime, Watson!”

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I’m with you. [OrcDragon65]
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WEll. Whether you want me or not, you’ll always have me (in a distant sorta way, since I’m out here in the tooleydingles…). We’re family. =D [HyacatDuncan]