Letter To Melanie
Melanie,
I obviously read your letter to Mike. I understand your fears about sending it, because things have reached something of an odd balance between you two, and you don’t want to tip the scales, for worry that things will go to the worst outcome. I understand not wanting such a long friendship to end. And I definitely understand someone not being able to own up to someone else about who their friends are. But I also know that within all the important decisions, or even minor ones, in one’s life… you have to remain true to yourself. You were the one who has taught me that so thoroughly. And in many different entries and IM’s of yours, you’ve talked about the pain that your Mike has caused you for different reasons. We’ve become so much closer in the past year and some odd months, and even if our friendship was nothing more than what it was after we reconciled, I’d still be worried about you. I care about you and your well-being, and hate that you’re being hurt by someone this much. I think that you should send this letter, because you owe it to yourself to find out the truth. I know that everything I can say, how his behavior is unfair, how he should own up to his friendship to you, how low it speaks of him that he doesn’t, you already know and have most likely stated. And I know that when he is around, he’s the greatest friend you could ask for, and you have God only knows how many memories of good experiences and bad. But there’s one definite truth I’ve found where friendship is concerned. Just because you’ve locked a door on a person, doesn’t mean they may not find a key later on down the line. You shouldn’t have to be afraid of this, because you do deserve more than this in your friendships. If it was a matter that you were just drifting apart, that’s one thing, but if a friendship is either going to end, or become stronger, someone has to do something to get out of the limbo. And that’s where you guys seem to be. No matter how much it scares you, get out of limbo. You have friends around you to help you through it if your friendship to him does end. And if it doesn’t, hopefully he’ll realize what he’s done, own up to it, and become the full-time friend that you deserve. Swallow the fear. Remain true to yourself and talk to him. Or send the letter. That way, you’ll know, either way. Good luck with whatever decision you make, and just know, I’m behind you.
Kate. 🙂
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Thank you for the letter and the friendship. But this, honestly, is something I have to deal with myself. I thought about making that entry private, but i decided against it at least minute. I don’t know what I’m going to do yet..but thank you for the advice. [SolarEclipse]
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So…did you or didn’t you do it, yet? The slapping thing? WHAT HAPPENED? ((urge to butt out…rising)) Hm. Ya know what? obeying th urge…butting out now. Lemme know if you need me. Ja mata ne! [HyacatDuncan]