I’ve Got A Plan

Yeah, I’m still homesick.  I can’t wait to be able to come back home.  I decided what I’m gonna do.  Rob and I are going to get jobs, (yeah, how much does it suck that we’re still working on that front?  We’re still not employed!!!) and then we’re going to save up and save up and save up and search around online and stuff until we find a good area near New Jersey, (or possibly in New Jersey, it depends on prices,) that we can move back to.  We’re gonna pay the moving company ourselves, I’m gonna have pretty much everything packed up that we can, and maybe we’ll stay at my parents house for a few days and the movers can call us there when the stuff’ll be delivered.  We’ll pay for everything ourselves, though, and to do that, I figure we’ll need about 7 or 8 thousand saved up.  And I know that’ll take us at least a year.  ::Sighs::

But I’m gonna do it, somehow.  Hopefully, we’ll manage this and be back there by Feb. of ’08 at the latest.  (This has a twofold advantage.  I’ll be home and I’ll be close by for Melanie’s wedding.  🙂  There’s no way I’m gonna miss it.)

It’s true that you never really realize how much you have until you’ve lost it.  ::Sighs::  Plus, I’m kinda wondering something else.  If I’m meant to be alone in this life.  Rob and I . . .  We aren’t fighting, exactly.  It’s more like . . . sarcastic comments at one another.  But it’s never really that bad.  I don’t know.

I guess I’m wondering if I’ll ever be able to be truly happy with anyone.

::Sighs::  Oh, well.  Plans to get me back to New Jersey, or at least near it, (like Delaware, Pennsylvania, etc.,) are what I’m focusing on now.