It Was Two Years Ago Today . . .

Two years ago today when Melanie and I had our blowout.  Two years ago last night when I realized, once and for all, that Dolly and I were through.  Two years ago tonight that I told Mike off for not being there for me, and also got yelled at by his dad for doing so.  Two years ago today that so much pain, so much bitterness, so much hurt was in my life.

Things have changed so much in two years . . .

Melanie and I are friends again.  Dolly and I aren’t, and probably never will be.  It still hurts, but nowhere near as badly.  And I’m in nowhere near as bad straits as I was back then.  I’m happy right now.  My life is fairly good.  Yeah, I’ve got the normal ups and downs, but I have terrific friends, a good job, and I’ve leanred a lot about myself, after nearly losing myself.

I suppose I should comment on the current standing with Dan.  He’s actually been over at the house quite a few times recently.  Mike has been helping the family that Dan lives with, and Dan would drive him back here and they’d hang out for awhile.  I didn’t mind, and the first few times, I was doing my own thing.  And then the three of us started playing Smash Brothers, or Street Fighter.  I don’t mind him coming over anymore.  I actually like it when he does.  I’m getting to the point where I can look at him again.

We have fun.  We laugh.  And I like it this way.  I’m never going to be foolish enough to think that I’ll get to know him better than this, and certainly never going to be stupid enough to make the attempt, but being able to hang out and not feel so uncomfortable around him is nice.  In fact, I find it funny.  I think it’s switched.  I think he feels uncomfortable around me now!  Lol.  I don’t think he knows what to make of me, or maybe he doesn’t know if I’ll spazz on him or not.  Lol.  Oh, well.  I’m not gonna worry about it.  Like I said, there’s no point in me trying to figure out his head.

I swear, though, if I have another dream with him in it in another couple of days, I’m going to freak out.  It’d just be too weird . . .

Okay, I’m gonna go.  Listening to Phantom, and I just remembered my promise to myself that I was gonna go rake leaves today.  So, bye!!

–Notes–

Anniversaries are always either good or bad arent they? I mean you only remember the good or bad, but never the unimportant? At least, its usally that way for me. Its ashame it takes either something monumentious or destructive to my life to make me remember. [My_Own_Fall]
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In two years..alot can change. Some changes are for the better and some for the worst…but always remember to take something from each change and learn from it. Life gives us obstacles for a reason-to learn and grow from them. We’ve all become stronger people because of what we’ve faced in life. [SolarEclipse]