I’m Really Missing Someone To Hold

My Mood:   — <— Wanting This

Yeah, so , the night before last, I had this really bizarre dream.  It was a mix of Static Shock, Young Sherlock Holmes, and Revolutionary Girl Utena.  It was weid.  There was this . . . like . . . Richie/Watson character and he and I ended up making out at the end of the dream.  And before that, basically, he and I attended this elite school called Omega Pi.  We were in this computer class where my old math teacher, Savoth, was teaching.  He told us to bring out our computer chip/cell phone things.  Well, he went around checking to make sure everyone had theirs and that they were taking good care of them and I was getting upset because it looked like I didn’t have mine.

Someone else didn’t have theirs, either, and Savoth went into this rage and started tirading against all of us and suddenly I saw myself in front of this furnace thing.  He was burning a whole bunch more designs of those cell phone/computer chip things, and I started crying in the dream, because one design was a really cute turtle.  And that was when I realized that the Richie/Watson guy had noticed me.

After that, Richie/Watson adn I met up and he started telling me something about a giant conspiracy going on at the school, and how he knew how we could prove it.  So we snuck into this hotel suite like place and started searching.  Somehow, we wound up falling on this king sized bed that came out of nowhere, and then we were making out.

So, yeah.  Last night, I was really missing someone holding me.  And yesterday at work, I didn’t get to see my DDR prince.  Lol.  That’s what I’ve nicknamed him.  I swear, he is incredible at that game.  And he’s cute.  I’m not dillusional enough to think anything’ll come of it, but still . . . dreaming’s nice.

I wish I could meet someone over this summer.  I mean, enough people hang out in fron of the DDR machine, either playing or watching.  It’s not too much to ask for a twenty-two, twenty-three year old guy who’s good looking to come up and play a few rounds, is it?  And then to come over for a drink and start talking to me.

::Sighs::  Yeah, I fantasize in the big picture.  Oh, well.  Okay, I should go and take a shower and go down to the gym so I can kick butt.

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April 11, 2005

hmm…. if you were living in my neighborhod … i’d let you borrow the stuffed Eeyore for a while to hug and to hold… :”> btw, thought of just telling you that she was thinking what you were thinking. it MUST be OCD and it IS something that is NOW gone to “serious.” her option for me to do was think about medicating me (even though i dont like the idea). we had signed release forms today..

April 11, 2005

….in order to have her talk to my other two therapists to get the idea on what was discussed.