I Hate This. I Asolutely HATE It!!!

I hate this.  I’m pissed off at both Lee and Ken for doing this to Melanie.  How is it that neither one of them had the consideration to realize that if they had feelings for one another, they should talk to Melanie about it and the situation should be dealt with with maturity and honesty?  How is it that they both valued her so little that they didn’t care that they tore her heart out?  How can either of them be happy knowing that they removed two of the most important people from her life because they turned out to be frauds?

I read Lee’s live journal.  When it looked like she was someone worth knowing, I bookmarked the site   She has an entry on there about all this.  Talking about how she’s not remorseful at all, and words trying to make her feel that way are useless.  I hope Ken cheats on her.  I hope she cheats on him.  I hope she winds up with some STD that incapacitates her.  I hope his cancer reoccurs.  If he ever had it in the first place.

I just don’t understand how Melanie knew Lee for at least three years, if not a few more, and Lee could stab her in the back this way.  In all honesty, Ken’s actions don’t surprise me in the least.  Admittedly, I didn’t suspect this of him, but everything that I heard about him initially, and read in his OD, just gave me a bad feeling and made me wonder.

Melanie says that she wishes she’d listened to everything that people said, that she’d listened to all the different people who didn’t like one or both of them.  But unfortunately, I also know she wouldn’t have listened, no matter what.  Not only did she have faith in both of them, but she’s stubborn.  She doesn’t want to believe rumors about a person, especially when she feels she knows them better.  Just like I didn’t want to listen to rumors when no one could bring me facts during my junior year.

I wish I could do something to take away her pain.  I wish I could help her somehow.  But how does one help in a situation like this?  How does someone wipe away tears that are rightfully shed over people lost, bonds broken, and trusts misplaced?  How does one comfort someone else when the two people who caused so much pain are living it up and probably not even considering what they put her through?

Nowadays, there are very few people that I hate.  But I hate them for doing this.  Melanie’s an honest person.  Honest people deserve to have honest people in their lives.  I mean, what?  Was the "thrill" of betraying her so alluring that they couldn’t be honest with their feelings?  I mean, honesty with their feelings, I could understand.  Him saying he wants to be together with Lee and him and Melanie breaking up cuz of that.  No doubt, she wouldn’t want to talk to them for a bit, if for no other reason than to get used to the situation.  But that’s better than what happened!

I hate lies.  And I hate that they seem to keep happening to her.  She doesn’t deserve this.  And despite my initial reservations about him, she was so happy with him and all that that I honestly thought, you know what?  If she’s this happy and trusts someone this much, it’s gotta be real.

And I’m still debating whether to put this public or private because while it’s my diary and I have the right to rant, I don’t want to cause her more pain if/when she reads it.  It’s sort of the same as that line in the live action Beauty and the Beast I saw.  "I cannot make her happy, but I do not want to cause her pain."

I’m just so sorry that this happened to her.  And I want to do something, but I know there’s nothing I can do.  Except be a friend.