Happiness Is A Warm Gun

Yeah, I know.  Not the greatest title when I’m talking about suicide and cutting.  Long story short, this girl was thinking about suicide several days ago, and had tried cutting.  On the upside, the entry that she asked advice from me on was about a guy and how to tell him that she liked him.  But it’s the first two things I’ll comment on first.

Cutting and even talk about suicide greatly disturb me.  It scares me that someone will become so emotionally dead that their only way of knowing that they still feel things is by slashing a knife across parts of their body.  I know, that may not be the reason everyone does it, or has done, or will do it, but it is one of the major reasons.  People who cut or want to commit suicide seem to me to have given up on life.  Or perhaps are giving life one last chance.  Saying, ‘if I’m really cared about, something will come along to save me.’

When I hear about things like thoughts of suicide or attempts at cutting, it scares me, because everyone has someone who cares about them.  It’s just that so many people who are in those positions to want to end their lives don’t know that.  Well, I say right now, to anyone who reads this, who ever even could think about suicide, or thinks that no one cares about them, I want to say that I DO!!!!  I do care about you, because you are a human being, with fears, and emotions, and you’re worth it.  You have qualities about you that make you worthwhile, and it’s not your fault that others are too blind to see them.  You can always look to this diary to see that there is at least one person who values you being here, even if I don’t know you.

Okay, gonna write another entry on the mystery of guys, as I understand it.

–Notes–

i been there, emotionally dead. it sucks. big time. i was gonna cut. suicide. it sucked. but now , i’m good. so if you know any one who needs to talk about it, i know where their coming from. and i listen. so if you need it i’m here. aim:Kikurbutyhrsckc9 email:alienlizardku91@yahoo.com let me know.. leave me a note love for ever! kaitlyn [xXFatally FallingXx]