Feeling Restless
Geez. I went through this my senior year, why must I go through it now?
Okay, explanations pending. (Is that the right word? ::shrugs:: Anyway . . .) Okay, my senior year, I was always going on and on to everyone who would listen, (and some who wouldn’t) about Mike, because he was my best friend. I thought he was the greatest guy in the world, and all that stuff, you know? I only got to see him maybe once a week after school started, and that weas hard, considering that we’d seen one another every day over the summer.
I guess it was around November, or December when things started spinning out of control. I talked about Mike a bit too much, you see, and people started saying how it was a miracle we weren’t going out. Would we start dating? When were we eloping? And they just got worse, and more numerous as time wore on, and both he and I insisted that we weren’t going to get together. I thought that the only people who were reasonably believing us were his parents, but it turns out that the only reason they said, “Nah, I don’t think you’ll get together,” is because they thought there was enough pressure on us from others. (If I’m completely honest with myself, it’s one of the few things I agree with Dan on. Mike and I had dating since July 12, 1999. It just took us till February to announce it.) Lol. But anyway, I’ve talked to the other workers at Dots about Jason, and Kerri was teasing me today about him. Argh. Why is it that a guy and girl can’t be best friends, and nothing else? I mean, yes, I will freely admit, we had a chance, last June, of getting together. But we didn’t. We decided that being best friends was too good of a thing. In so many ways, we’re literally too close to get together, because neither of us wants to ruin the friendship that we have. I mean, he actually said to me that it was a gamble he wouldn’t take, because he knows how deep my emotions can go. He knows how hurt I can become.
I’m reading over this, and I’m probably digging my own grave for the “don’t bug me about he and I getting together, cuz it ain’t gonna happen.” Yeah, I’ve too often heard the phrase, “Methinks he doth protest too much.” Or in this case, “she.”
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You and Jason? Bleh! No No No. It’s too weird..Never ever date your best friend. It’s wrong *lol* Not that we both aren’t guilty of doing that. I love having Mike still as my best guy friend. I adore him, and he’s an amazing person. There is nothing like a friend like that. It’s a special thing. You and Jason have that…and I’m happy for the both of you. I hope everything is going well. Sorry [SolarEclipse]
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about the lack of notes..but as you know, I’ve been really busy. I’m not going to make comments about you and Jason because I know how it feels to have people think your “with” your best guy friend, or you “will be”. *HINT* YOU DID THE SAME THING TO ME AND ROB!!!!!!!!!! *lol* [SolarEclipse]
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Ryn: Thanks. I agree. A lot of my notes to people are my way of trying to cheer people up. 🙂 [*~Advice~*]
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Don’t shut out the possibility, Kate…cuz you never know 😉 It’s hard for me to imagine having a best friend who’s a guy; mine were always girls but perhaps that is changing. Hmm… [Jilliebean]
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Ryn: It’s actually in no particular order. It’s random. I’m random about a lot of things, as you can probably tell. 😛 [*Poetry Contest*]