Entry 825 – I Really Don’t Want To Be Alone Today
But I’ll get to that later. First, let me do an overview of what’s happened the past . . . two weeks, maybe?
Okay, on the 13th, Melanie showed me this park that she and Lee used to go to in Middletown that has all these like, balance beam things and stuff like that. It turns out that it’s a park that schools used to use as challenge things to get the students to work together. I remember it because I went there with my class at some point in middle school. No, wait. It was my freshman year. That’s when we went. Anyway, it’s the same park that I mentioned in the last entry, that I’ve taken to dragging Rob to.
Anyway, that day, Rob and I had said ‘okay, let’s take a break from one another, do our own thing.’ It turned out that he got called into work, though. So I picked him up. When I did, he told me that he was feeling what he calls ‘seizure-sick,’ which kinda scared me a bit. I was worried about him. But he was all right. He told me something that actually helps the circumstancial evidence around my esteem and belief theory concerning epilepsy. He told me that he’d been feeling that way at work for about the last hour he was there and that he kept holding that ID bracelet I’d given him and thinking to himself, "Kate’ll get me through this, she won’t let something bad happen to me," and things like that. I was happy that he thought of me and told him that night, "I’m glad I was able to help you, even though I couldn’t be there in person."
Let’s see, the 14th, Tuesday, he had off and he wanted to go to the Multiplex and take advantage of that five dollar bargain Tuesday deal. It was too nice a day, though, I wanted to stay outside. But we compromised. Go outside and play for a little while, then go see a movie or two. He wanted to see UltraViolet, I still wanna see The Hills Have Eyes and Aquamarine. Well, when I picked him up, I took him down to that park that Melanie showed me. I kept encouraging him to try the different things there, like those square log balance beam things, or just the straight logs, then there are these tightrope things held up between different trees. There were also these stumps ranging from about six inches to about a foot and a hlaf off the ground going in a circle that we found way in the back. I started on one and made it all the way around and told him he should try, it would probably be easier for him because he has longer legs and could make some of the steps more easily.
He did try and somehow kept losing his balance and having to step off the things and go back on the ground. But he kept trying cuz he got frustrated and was determined to make it all the way around the damn thing. Lol. He’d actually picked up a stick at one point and was using it as a sword, stepping from one stump to the other, going, "Attack," "defend." Ironically enough, it helped him. He made it three quarters of the way around when he was doing that, but then fell off.
I started going around again and I heard him trying again from the beginning because he wouldn’t take my suggestion to just get back on the stump he stepped off of. (I couldn’t help grinning at that and thinking to myself, "Stubborn…" but I was also proud of him that he wouldn’t "cheat.") Anyway, I hear him behind me and I turned just in time to see him (how he managed this, neither of us are completely sure,) fall backwards and then hit his head on the ground. That scared the bejeezus outta me, let me tell you, cuz I heard his head hit.
He was okay, thank God, but that just really freaked me out. We stayed there, me next to him, him with his head in my lap for a little while. Anyway, like I said, he was all right, but we definitely left the park after that. We came back to my house and that night we went to go see UltraViolet. It wasn’t a bad movie, but honestly, not one that I really want to see again. It was interesting, but truly, it simply seemed to me to be a thinly veiled attempt at getting as much shooting and martial arts action that the main character does as possible.
On the 17th, Rob and I went ice skating at the rink in Old Bridge. He’s definitely better than the first time we went, though he still fell about four times.
I went over to his house at about one thirty and picked him up after showering and changing. We got to the rink, paid, and got our skates. And of course, I wanted to get right out there and start skating, but I said if Rob wanted to wait, I’d go around a couple times by myself. Lol, he insisted on wearing those knee pads that he’d picked up for when we go rollerblading, and these two kids and their grandma were watching us when we were putting on our skates. Rob loked up at the grandma at one point when he was fastening a knee pad and said, "See, I expect to fall, so I’m going out there prepared," or something like that.
It was fun, especially since we got to talk to these two kids and their grandma who were there. Lol, the one was this kid named Andrew and he kept making fun of Rob, saying how he was so much faster on skates and stuff and why wasn’t Rob skating right. It was funny to see, especially since Rob was getting so annoyed at the kid. Later he was like, "I swear, if he hadn’t been a kid, I’d’ve punched him . . ."
Anyway. Onto why I don’t wanna be alone today. Today’s Friday and yesterday morning, my dad woke me up at twenty after ten because Jason’s dad called here asking if we knew where Jason was. I guess he ran out of his house last night and didn’t come back. Well, obviously, he hadn’t come by here. Heck, if he had and my parents hadn’t known, I’m not sure I would’ve said anything, anyway. Regardless, I stayed up and figured ‘okay, let me check a couple of places.’ I drove to Veteran’s Park, I hecked out Holmdel, but of course, to no avail. I didn’t expect to find him at either place, honestly. But all day Thursday, I was going nuts. Especially since I knew I couldn’t call Rob at least until one. Give him time to sleep, I figured. Cuz I knew if I called him with worries like this, he’d wake up and he’d probably stay awake because of worry over me.
Anyway, needless to say, I wasn’t exactly at my best on Thursday. That night, Rob and I went skating so I could try to take my mind off things and work out some agression. I also had him trying 180’s. Once again, he fell and landed on his left hip. Somehow, the poor guy always lands on that side when he goes down. In any case, though, usually a fall like that would have us pack up and leave once he could get to his feet again. But this time, he got to his hands and knees and though I couldn’t se his face, his position just kind of exuded determination. He got to his feet, with the help of my shoulders, and we kept skating. He even tried 180’s again, though I told him to skate toward the railing and try it. That way, if I didn’t catch him, he could catch himself on the railing. It worked, luckily. <img alt="" src="htt
p://www.opendiary.com/images/smileys/0038.gif” />
Like I said, today’s Friday, and it’s driving me nuts. Rob said he wanted to spend a day apart and while I’m okay with that, I really wish it hadn’t had to be this one . . . I’m just worried to death about Jason.