Contradiction In Terms, Anyone?

Okay, so I’ll tell the good news first.  I went to go see that hedgehog breeder here in Kansas and I absolutely fell in love with a little male hedgehog that she has.    He is the cutest thing and I’ll have pictures as soon as I can.  So I decided I’m gonna get him.  And I’d actually gotten a cockatiel here, but my mom’ll kill me if I bring home a bird, so I asked the woman if there was any way she could take him.  Not her, but someone she knows can, so that’s good.  At least he’ll go to someone who knows someone I know.  And I know that this woman is knowledgable in the ways of taking care of animals.  She has 18 cats, about six or seven dogs, about five or six goats, a goose, ducks and chickens and roosters, two llamas, several horses, snakes, tortoises, bearded dragons, a ferret, and two rooms of hedgehogs.  (The baby hedgehogs are SO CUTE!!!)  Anyway, I’m willing to bet that a woman like that wouldn’t associate with someone who had animals and didn’t take care of them properly, so I’m sure the bird will be well cared for.

And now the bad news . . .

I feel like Rob’s saying this to me.  I finally talked to him tonight about the possiblity of us breaking up.  He handled it a Hell of a lot better than Mike ever did, but . . .

I don’t want to hurt him, that’s the last thing I want to do, but I also don’t want to see him have to go back to his parent’s house.  And that’s what he’s talking about needing to do now, if we do break up.  But I don;t want to subject him to his parents again.  His mom’s a coward who never should have stayed with his so-called father for as long as she has, and his so-called father is a jackass.  I mean, what else can you call someone who actually believes his wife is having an affair with her own son?  And the cowardly bastard didn;t even have the guts to tell that to Rob, his mom had to do it to finally end his so-called father’s taunts and things of, "You know what you and your mother did."

But I don’t know if I can be together with him.  Can I be together with someone when I’m not over the events of the past?  Can I be together with someone who doesn;t mentally stimulate me?  Who actually likes just sitting in fornt of the TV for so much of the day?  Who just . . .

I don’t even know anymore.  I’m honestly thinking that I’m simply meant to be alone.  Why am I even bothering to look for a prince charming when he obviously doesn’t exist?