Building Walls

Yeah. I’d say that about covers it. There are so many walls that Drew has in his mind that I wonder if I’ll ever breech. Some of them I know I can’t. There are secrets in his head he needs to keep, that because of circumstances, he’s not allowed to reveal. But other things…

So often, if I try to ask about them, he shuts down. Says he doesn’t want to talk about it. And while I know a lot of these things are painful, and that he has some pretty Major trust issues, they’re so often things he should discuss with someone else. Considering the things he’s confided in me about already, I think I’m the best person to manage this, but sometimes it feels completely hopeless.

But then, there are times when he talks to me about when he was younger, or about things with his ex. Or just plain things that have gone on during his day that I wouldn’t know about, had he not volunteered. To whatever degree, he does trust me. Just not enough yet.

Time will tell.

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June 15, 2009

I hope that with time he’s able to open up and let it all go. RYN: No worries, you didn’t bring me down or anything. My eldest sister has actually been asking me very similar questions. It’s good that people keep reminding me to be rational and careful. It’s too big a decision to just throw away, so thanks :o)

July 1, 2009

RYN: Don’t worry, I’m really ok. Just a little crazy somedays. Thanks for being concerned. It’s always nicee to know someone cares. Hope all is well with you.