Angry Feelings

I’ve been going between being pissed off and being depressed all day. And is this just me, or has the layout, and printing and stuff for OD gotten, like, two font sizes bigger??? I don’t like it. Oh, well. I took the fake nails off so I could actually type today. I swear, I just feel like . . . I don’t even know. I want to go up to Jason, grab him by the collar, and just start screaming at him, why is he doing this? what the hell is going through his head? why is he seemingly s determined to make me so damned miserable??? Who the Hell is he to tell me that it’s my fault that he made the conscious decision to screw up and betray not only Mike, but myself? I want to stake out Target until a time when I know he’s there, and then pounce on him. I want to demand answers, demand to know why he’s treating me this way, demand to know why someone who he claims has “little or no control” over him is guiding his every move, like a puppet on strings. Dance, Jason, DANCE! She’s lording your strings, remember? And you’re so afraid of the rest of the world, that you’re not willing to let her cut them, and you’re too much of a coward to cut them yourself.

::Sighs:: See? That’s how I get, and I can get worse, when I let anger take over. But I just keep myself at depression when I feel anything on this, because anger won’t do me any good. It’s not like I can say this stuff to him, and even if I could, I’d get no reaction whatsoever, just because he’s that damned determined not to give me one.

Yeah, all in all, I’m not in a good mood. And I think I still have this crush, I’m not sure, but I know that I’m looking forward to seeing him on Thursday, but I’m not even sure he’s gonna be there!! ::Sniffs:: Wah …

Btw, Joey, who did you think it was? If you dont want to say publicly, then leave me a private note.

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Yikes..the anger bears its ugly head. I don’t know what to tell you about Jason because by now I would have staked out Target and probably kicked him repeatedly until he gave me some answers, but that is just me. I’m quite curious about who this crush is, but…I’m gonna wait until your ready to reveal it to me. No use pestering you *lol* [SolarEclipse]
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your welcome. [ahatelessworld]
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I have no clue now. I though I had an idea, but from you latest entry I am in the dark again. I though it was Uncle Pete for a sec. My evidence. You seem to enjoy talking to him a lot. You say that you shouldn’t have a crush on the person, and that this person was older than you. That was my take on it. Just don’t go off on me if I’m wrong, if I am, belive me I’ll be embarrassed enough as it is. [OrcDragon65]
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Don’t beat yourself up for feeling emotions, they are yours and yours alone, and each one is a part of you, a part that should be respected and treated equally, because there is no ‘bad’ or ‘wrong’ emotions. Let them flow naturally, and you’ll find things you often never thought about. Stay happy, stay healthy! [Angel Knight]