A Poem I’ve Seen Floating Around . . .

Around the corner I have a friend,
In this great city that has no end,
Yet the days go by and weeks rush on,
And before I know it, a year is gone.
And I never see my old friends face,
For life is a swift and terrible race,
He knows I like him just as well,
As in the days when I rang his bell.
And he rang mine but we were younger then,
And now we are busy, tired men.
Tired of playing a foolish game,
Tired of trying to make a name.
"Tomorrow" I say! "I will call on Jim
Just to show that I’m thinking of him."
But tomorrow comes and tomorrow goes,
And distance between us grows and grows.
Around the corner, yet miles away,
"Here’s a telegram sir," "Jim died today."
And that’s what we get and deserve in the end.
Around the corner, a vanished friend.

Remember to always say what you mean.
If you love someone, tell them.
Don’t be afraid to express yourself.
Reach out and tell someone what they mean to you.
Because when you decide that it is the right time, it might be too late.
Seize the day.
Never have regrets.

This poem was in one of my high school yearbooks in regards to a student who had died in a car accident earlier that year. It’s weird. When I was a kid, I never knew how to say what I meant. To tell someone else what they meant to me. I always thought if I did, that I would be in for insults, and too many times, I was right. I once called up James, and told him I loved him, then slammed down the phone, hanging up on him. He later told me that he laughed at me, and when he told his family, they laughed as well. My mom told me, from the time I was little, that the worst thing you could do when you knew a guy you liked, was tell him that you liked him. That would scare him off, she said. It wasn’t until I met Ryan that I decided not to follow this advice. Everyone else, kept it a secret from that I liked them. Though I don’t think I kept that secret very well, most times. I don’t know. I’m worried about Dolly. She seemed more . . . unemotional and unattached than I’ve ever seen her. And that’s not a good thing. Like Jason was for me, Dolly, I can be a safety net for you. I don’t know how to advise you climbing back up, using my analogy, but I’m behind you when you do.

I’m worried about something else, too. But I don’t want to write about it on here just because of who it involves. That’s partially because I’m doing speculating of my own, and partially just because I don’t want to start something with someone else, when I really have nothing to back up my speculations. I don’t know. You ever feel that someone is . . . I don’t know. Milking something for all it’s worth? I mean, I get the feeling that this is happening, but . . . I don’t know. I’m just gonna sit back and watch for a bit. See what happens for now.

Oh, on another subject, as Dolly mentioned, Jason pulled me, her, Jess, and a friend of Jess’s into a chat room today. I still wonder on his motive for that. I mean, one does not lightly pull his best friend, his ex, and the girl he likes who doesn’t like him back into a chat room together. Must ask him about this tomorrow. Because I can’t help thinking that there was a definite reason behind it, but that once he got us all there, fear or reason, or something else took over, and he realized that whatever he planned wasn’t going to work. I don’t know.

–Notes–

That poem was so sad. it makes you want to just jump up and tell everyone everything you have been keeping a secret from, ya know? Well it was very sad. have a good day..Amanda [purtyinpink]
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Oh, just say it. If you start stuff, u start stuff. Out w/it. Being so emotionally detached as I am, I’ll probably abandon all tact and say it myself later. >:) [HyacatDuncan]
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Why would Jason bring you into a chat like that? It’s kind of weird..but then, Jason is kind of weird. *lol* Anyway, I just want to thank you for being there for me with my Grandmother and everything. I really do appreciate the support, more than you know. Oh, and good news..she is out of the hospital!!!!! [SolarEclipse]
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If I can be of help to you in anyway, be it a wall to bounce the ball of thought against or anything else, just tell me alright? Thanks for your note, it meant a lot to know I’m not the only one… perhaps there are more of us? Anyways, I’ll say it again, if I can be of service, all you have to do is ask… be strong like I know you are! [Angel Knight]