Today I cried

Today is supposed to be my rest day. I stayed in bed an extra 2 hours, ate pancake and drank coffee for breakfast. It was going well, I watched my favorite animes and a couple of netflix series. I was relaxed, then I did my laundry and folded my clothes. I was scrolling through some shorts and came across a women telling her husband about her pregnancy. It dawned upon me that the chances of me having a baby is very slim. My ex-wife doesn’t want to have a baby, the girl that I really like doesn’t want to have a baby either. Maybe adoption is the next best thing, but it wouldn’t be the same. Then again I thought about it some more, I don’t want to put my love one in 9 months of pain and hardship. I know I would be there for her to support but it is different because I’m not the one in her position. Hopefully tomorrow would be a better day.