Coldness

Today I felt the coldness all the way down to my spine. Her gaze used to be filled with warmth and kindness, now even a glimpse of her joyful eyes can’t be seen. I think there was a huge misunderstanding or a big mistake on my part. Yesterday, before our class begins. I saw my old co worker and decided to have a little chat with her. While catching up,  my obsession passed by next to me and gave me a hard look for a second and the proceeded with a thousand yard stare. I ignored the signal and failed to take action promptly. Me and my old coworker was close but not close to be mistaken for having a relationship. I fully support and respect her relationship with her boyfriend. There is only one person that fills me with joy and that is my obsession. I’m calling her obsession because it is one sided, I think… She did everything to avoid me but it seems like fate is messing with us. I tried to avoid her too out of respect but we ended up being in the same group. As we are doing a circuit run she always stood right behind me and close enough so I wouldn’t see her. I made sure I ran really quick to the back to get a glimpse of her but she still gave a thousand yard stare. Today is little different though. She totally ignored me from the start and when we are about to cross our path she turns away. So after our class today I decided to stay a little longer to give her a lead time on our drive home. Like I said fate is messing with us because we drive the same route home I always passed by her house on my way to our class. I hope that this coldness doesn’t last long because I feel so lonely not receiving an acknowledgement of my existence. Again this is my mind overthinking and making it complicated. This is a one sided relationship that her side is pure assumption. But still she completely fills the void in my heart and that is all that matters to me.