Productive Day

 Today is my first official day as a PartyLite consultant! I have my first party tonight. I’m a little nervous, but I know I shouldn’t be. The hostess is one of my friends, and I’m pretty sure I’m going to know everybody that is going to be there. I’m sure I’ll do fine. But then I think about how I have never given an oral presentation before. Not even once. 

I honestly don’t know how I got through high school. Every class I was in, you had to give at least two oral presentations to the class. Mandatory. Had to do it. Never did. I did try. Once. I got so nervous I threw up. And then all of my classmates made fun of me for the next four years. I’ve never had a problem getting up in front of people I don’t know and making a fool of myself. (That’s what I see myself doing no matter what it is that I am doing or presenting.) But getting up in front people that you know and see all the time? I’m so afraid of being constantly judged by people that know me that it makes me sick. 

A little less sick now that I’ve figured myself out and have gotten comfortable in my own skin. But still nervous. Still sick. Never had this much of an issue doing The Musical. Maybe I’ll write all of my information into a song and deliver it THAT way. Should have thought about that earlier. I don’t think I have the time, now. 

Cleaned out the cab of my car this morning. It was in need. Desperately. I was thinking, "What if someone came down to my car to help me get my demo stuff out of my car?" I should be able to get everything into someone’s house by myself in one trip, but still. What If? They would probably see the piles of receipts stuffed into every crevice of my car. The bag of Hershey Kisses that broke open and have been rolling around my backseat. The piles of dirt and rocks that have accumulated in my front foot wells. (How do ALL of those rocks get into the car, I wonder?) And the Fritos that spilled in my backseat that I haven’t vacuumed out yet. 

Yeah my car has never been that gross before. I cleaned it all out. Vacuumed everything. Cleaned the windows and all the crud off of the shifter. I feel better about getting into my car today. The trunk on the other hand, is a whole ‘nother story. I’ll get to that another day. I don’t even know where to start on that one. But the cab is cleaned out and I have more than enough space for my demo stuff. And that is all that matters. 

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Michelle went to Colorado this past weekend for a job interview. She came back yesterday and says she thinks she got the job. They called her back while on her flight home and told her that they were running her background checks, and they would like for her to come back for a trial basis while they do all of the other tests and stuff that she needs to get done. 

If she takes the job, she doesn’t know when she’ll be leaving. Soon, I’m sure. Couple of weeks, at most. She wants to get up to WEBs before she leaves to but yarn. (Oh the monster I created!) I told her that they were having a big sale in April, which is when my knitting group and I are going up, and she should wait. Waiting may not be an option, so I think we’re going to go up next week. I told her she should just window shop. Make a list, tell me what she wants and in what quantities, and I’ll buy and ship it out for her. More bang for her buck and all that. 

I’m both happy for her and saddened by this job opportunity. I JUST started talking to her again, and now she’s leaving. But I don’t want to hold her back. She keeps saying that she doesn’t know if she’s going to take it. And I told her that she’s been looking to get out of CT for a long time, she wants to get a fresh start somewhere where she doesn’t know anybody, why are you reconsidering? That’s dumb. Because it IS a good job, it is what she wants, and there should be no reason not to take it. 

It will just be an excuse for me to take a vacation once in a while and go out to see her. 😛

She needs to find her happiness. She isn’t going to find it here in CT. 

But the exciting news about her (most likely) moving out there, is that she’s driving out. To Colorado. And she asked me to come with her for the ride. I told her I would definitely come with her. I’m already looking forward to it. Its going to be badass. 

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Yesterday was my mother’s and my Uncle Billy’s birthday. (Twins.) My dad and I took her out to dinner. She wanted to go to Jake’s Wayback Burger. Her choice. I didn’t think it was something that she would have wanted, but it was delicious. Think Five Guys Burgers and Fries, but a little different. Michelle and her mom came out with us and we had burgers and shakes and it was a good time. 

I brought a few skeins of yarn in a gift bag and told my mom to pick one. I will make her a pair of socks in her choice of yarn. 

I’m poor, but I have a lot of yarn. It makes a great last minute present. And its okay that it isn’t knitted into anything yet- because giving the recipient a choice the day of the gift giving, gives you more time to make a present! I had no idea what to get my mom for her birthday. I’m glad she liked her gift though. Now I have to knit socks. 

So that’s what’s new! 

More to come later. We’ll see how this PartyLite thing goes!

ALW