Getting Back to Normal

 I can’t remember the last time I have felt this relaxed. Granted, I have no choice but to be in a constant state of relaxation, due to the muscle relaxers I have to take. But it still feels damn good to feel this loose. My chest is about a million times better, and I’ve only been treating it for a few days. I stopped taking the relaxers after Wednesday. So Thursday and Friday I haven’t taken any at all, and I can honestly say I feel almost pain free. Almost. There are still certain things that pull in that painful way, but even that isn’t what it had been before. It just feels like a bruise that’s almost done healing. 

I am still taking the prescribed dose of Ibuprofen, however. I figure that won’t do me any great harm. 

Trainer Tim was extremely disappointed in me for not informing him of the extent of the pain that I was in. He talked at me while we went on our adventure on Tuesday morning. We went running, and I can’t say that I had the capability to talk and run at the same time. He told me that I had to start listening to my body and stop thinking that I can do more. 

Which is….basically what everyone else has been telling me for the past two weeks. I don’t know why sometimes things sound different or hold a different weight when someone else says it. I think it helps that he doesn’t take any bullshit or excuses. 

IDK. 

But since my chest is healing as quickly as it is, I think it will be safe to say that I won’t have many problems with doing things at Wildfire in two weeks. Which was actually one of my biggest concerns with this injury. I didn’t want to end up paying 120$ to go to something that I couldn’t participate in. I’m still going to be taking it easy for the next two weeks, just to make sure. 

Plus, my anxiety attacks over this whole situation have completely subsided. I feel dumb after the fact, for freaking out over something that I couldn’t control. But I also know at the time, that was what I felt. Useless. Unable to do anything. It was extremely discouraging. Thankfully, I finally feel like I have some grasp of control on this whole thing, so I’m at least stepping in the right direction. 

Looking forward to seeing the Girls tonight for knitting! Time for my workout first. Then I can play with fibers. 

ALW