stagnant.

I complain a lot.  I can feel how irritating it is.  I think it might just be the weather and the general Januaryness of it all, but I’m not thrilled with everything right now.  I keep waiting for something to happen.  Win something from the CHEO lottery, hear back from one of the places I applied, get engaged.  But nothing’s happening.  I’m bored.

I shouldn’t be so ungrateful.  I have the most lovely life and I know it.  I’m just itching for something to come along and shake things up.  Some change.  Something to break me out of the routine that’s going on here day after day.  When I was younger this meant going shopping, changing my shoes, dying my hair.  Some physical change.  But now that I’m so strangely excellent with my money, I just don’t want that.  I want some actual change in my life.

Maybe I’ll just go get a tattoo.