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I’m a little confused and lost. 

Had a long long long talk with the man last night about all that life is dishing right now.  Good talk.  But I feel like he didn’t give me the answer or advice I wanted to hear in regards to the job thing.  We do the same thing – he and I.  Oh, I want to make lots of money, good, got a job that gives me that.  Oh, now I’m miserable.  I want a job that makes me happy.  Oh, now I’m poor, and thus unhappy.  I want a job that makes me lots of money.  Good, got one.  Unhappy.  It’s a cycle we follow.

He advised me to stick out my contract.  I know it’s probably the right thing to do.  But for the record this is coming from someone who makes less than I do and is satisfied doing that.  Which is fine, but I don’t know that he quite understands how much I want to achieve my other life goals quickly.  Should I be patient?  I feel like this might be opportunity knocking.  And if it’s not… then is there harm in applying?  If I got an offer I could take that to my boss and see how much they value me then. 

I’m in a unique position.  I have a 1 year contract covering a maternity leave.  It ends in February.  Colleen isn’t back until April.  So I assume they would want to keep me at least until then.  That’s 9 months from now.  We discussed last night that maybe when my contract runs out is when to talk about a raise.  I can’t see them wanting to train someone to work the remaining 2.5 months before she gets back, but then is it worth it to me to be paid more for 5 cheques?  What about asking when I get my review in October?  She’s already aware of my financial goals in terms of salary, and then would be the time to discuss my goals again.  That’s only 3 months away.  But then what sort of leverage do I have?  That leaves 6 months until Colleen returns and 4 months until my contract is up. 

The best leverage, I feel, is an offer from another company.  I’m good at what I do.  I would be good at what they do too.  And I would make $10,000 more a year, plus commission.  But would I be happy?  I feel like I just have so much on the go outside of work that I could do anything that kept me busy enough to pass the time and paid enough to pay the bills and I would be ok.  Plus I would have freedom there that I don’t get here.  It makes me mental when a boss draws lines and enforces rules when they don’t follow them themselves.  She has a strict 12-1 lunchtime policy yet leaves at 11:30 and doesn’t come back til 1:45 some days.  She is makng me work through 3 lunches so I can leave 3 hours early for a wedding later this month and yet the same day she approved the time and told me about missing the lunches to make it up, she left at 2pm for a dentist appointment and took her full lunch hour.  It’s brewing into resentment.

My friend made a quick $15,000 deal the other day (not the norm, but still great).  I did some calculations.  She made about $1200 on that deal in commission.  That’s my paycheque.  Before taxes.  That was ONE DEAL.  And her base is way bigger than my whole paycheque!

I know a fair few people who need promo materials too.  I have 2 family members who own and run large local companies.  Keith’s uncle has his own garage and I know he orders promo things.  I have an LED flashlight keychain thing with his logo on it.  That’s 3 clients alone I’m 99% sure I could get. 

There’s a new executive and she’s super hot and the VP marketing, who I was supposed to hae a meeting with half an hour ago has her in his office talking about marketing strategy and it’s annoying cause I need to get my shit done.  And we hae a conference call in 5 minutes I’m sure well be late for.  Men.