Talked to Mum and Allycat

I never thought my daughter would be the one that stuck by me in this .. how she supported me and cried with me and told me I was a strong woman, how she would rally the troops and have them run interference.. she was amazing. 

I told Mum that I was not inviting David, that I was having real issues.. she was quiet and said I don’t envy your decisions .. our conversation was cut short and I said I’d call her back .. poor Mum 83 and having to listen to me cry on the phone and not being able to help .. I hoped I was not making her feel guilty. 

Allycat called in between times and her and I had a very long chat, If I invite them both , it will make for a calm day .. no family fueds, everyone knows and I will be so busy I wont have time to think about that.. 

If I do not invite him .. I upset my sister , my nephews , other family and it will be a huge fall out for months .. 

I spoke to Mum and she agreed, I spent some time telling her about my feelings, about why and how this has been on my mind and that I felt family had just thought it was all over and accepted him and that annoyed me , like he was almost up on a pedestal even though he had ruined my sister and I.. 

Mum took a deep breath and told me of some stories from the other side , how her and the others saw , heard and felt.. She said she admired how I coped with all this and thought I was strong and would cope with the day , that I was making the right choice by not making a volcano of the issue. . She let me know of the frustration M suffered , and the holes in the wall that she punched , how David knew that we all knew and even though he denied it all , she knew that he knows we watch him. 

She didn’t belittle the seriousness of it and asked if I wanted to go through with a public court and news paper display.. no I don’t , so I will just wait till he dies and do a dance.. 

So after days of tears and talking to my Mum daughter and sisters i am way calmer about the whole thing. 

Thank you for all your support also .. 

TTFN..xox