Depression

I find myself lost in a void,

Sometimes…I’m happy sometimes I’m sad,

I just can’t figure myself out.

I hate that…

I hate not knowing what I want or how to get it,

I wish I had a purpose,

But instead I’m just floating along…

This week has really made me question whether or not I’m good enough for any job. I have applied for about 5 jobs and not one of them has gotten back to me. I feel useless…stupid…inadaquate. I feel like I have wasted the last 3 years of my life in college and it’s all going to amount to nothing-except $50,000 worth of debt. I’m just really depressed….

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October 19, 2006

Sometimes, wallowing in depression is fun. But only in small doses. Keep your spirits up, you’ll find a job that perfect for you, or that you are perfect for. You have not wasted 3 years of your life, because you will put all that knowledge to use, DO put all that knowledge to use. I’m doing well, it has been a long time! 🙂

Hang in there with the job search. It took me a while. I sent out countless resumes and got one phone interview, several letters where they were looking for someone else or I was over-qualified before I found what I have now. Check out Monster.com. I got a lot of stuff back my way (mostly after I took this job), but some of it was doing consultant work and I didn’t like that much travelregardless of the pay and such. You’ll find something. I’m keeping my fingers crossed for ya!

I’m sure you will find something, easy to say that when it’s not me looking but I do think that. If you need anything let me know (not that I could really provide much, heh, but you know) I don’t know if I gave you my email address before or not it’s samurai_cloud@hotmail.com feel free if you ever want to but there is no obligation. Tkae care, hope you feel better.

October 20, 2006

Lighten up on yourself. Five jobs? That ain’t nuttin’ honey. You’re going to be turned-down and/or not contacted by far more than five – and it will still not be a reflection on your abilities. It just is what it is. It took me two years and countless dead-ins and turn-downs before I found this job. Of course having a job as I searched did not hurt any. I’m just saying it ain’t easy findinga job and you’re no less qualified or appealing than 10,000 more like you looking for jobs. Give it time…keep at it…have patience.

October 20, 2006

yeah that job search thing is a big pain in the ass……but yeah five just simply not enough attempts, I know it feels like a ton and I get sick of it by then too….but for a lot of people it takes a lot more than that sometimes. I kind of having that feeling of not knowing what I want right now too. Its quite odd too since I know exactly how to go about ‘getting’ just about anything that I

October 20, 2006

I might want at the moment……..as for tuesday well I was thinking pizza man, and then a few drinks either back at your house or out for a few hours. Dont worry I wont be ‘too’ naughty, I will have to get up and go to work at some point on weds, as it looks like i have at least another 7 days (work days) worth of work. Oh the other thing for jobs that I think would work good for me, and

October 20, 2006

and possibly you, is to apply for like one job per week or one every 3 days or something (depnding how badly you need one). Then it doesnt seem like you are wasting hours upon end, and after like a few weeks u will have applied for a good number of jobs.

October 20, 2006

Don’t beat yourself up to bad. Some companies take forever, and sometimes it just takes awhile. When I was hunting, I had a couple of jobs call me back 4 months after I had applied. Don’t lose hope, the right job will eventually come your way.

October 24, 2006

just breathe, you’ll pull through it, trust me. Good Luck job hunting, you’ll find one you like, and that fits you. all you have to do though is breathe, and keep calm. *hugs* thanks for ryn

October 26, 2006

A quest for a job goes like this: no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no, YES!!! Don’t be discouraged.

November 18, 2006

Yay depression… sucks. Im anti-social thats all i could think of to say. ^_^ Long time no see by the way.