a bit lost, but still here.

02:15 pm

[life is so vage, *flash* goes a scene in my face, and then it reapeats it self again and again.]

I skipped a class today…I was running late, and I desided it was better to miss it than to be late…first time in my life I skip a class just because…I feel semi guilty.

I am going to hang out with Natalie, and Sarah and Emily…it should prove to be quite and exprience…we’ll see how they take with my “new” relationship.If they don’t like it, they are not dating him, and they can jump of a cliff!( embot being excuded, because not only does she think it is wonderful, but she can realte with scoot…we aparently might be going on a double date….hhm…)

and now…THIS!!!

Amor mío, mi amor…

Amor mío, mi amor, amor hallado

de pronto en la ostra de la muerte.

Quiero comer contigo, estar, amar contigo,

quiero tocarte, verte.

Me lo digo, lo dicen en mi cuerpo

los hilos de mi sangre acostumbrada,

lo dice este dolor y mis zapatos

y mi boca y mi almohada.

Te quiero, amor, amor absurdamente,

tontamente, perdido, iluminado,

soñando rosas e inventando estrellas

-part of a poem, buy jaime sabines.

Current Mood: vague

photogeek

October 9, 2004

hey honey. yes, coming home would be a new battle plan, but it still feels tinged with defeat.i need your new number so that i can call you this weekend because i love you and miss you and i need someone that i can talk to.REALLY TALK TO. not these fvckin people who dont know what the fvuck im talking about. i need someone who knows what its like, someone like you baby, someone like you.

..or you can always call my cellular(3319897)because its still a lawrence number.god darlin, i tried so hard to find you before i left, only i couldnt &then i fled out of there like a wholwind, and i havent stopped running since about a week before i left home. i miss you terrably. so terrably. so, let me know because its free for me on the weekends and i really need to call you. love, Jaimie

GothGrrl

October 12, 2004

No, Wes. Who’s Rick? Wes is your age, right? Or a year younger?

Karmic Solution

October 13, 2004

I can’t read half of that (and know what it means). Hey, email me so I can have your email in my site, I don’t like coming to OD that much anymore, the computer takes too long to download OD. hehe…you skipped class. bad Belinda, you’re one of us now. (I’m skipping class today (but I’m going to be doing other homework in my defense, and homework for that class too.) ok bye

oh, my email is sinkmycheerios@Yahoo.com

SquishyMooMoo

October 20, 2004

I did figure out who you are, I just haven`t left you a note telling you so! Hi, Belinda!