20.00

By the time this goes on line it will be 20.00.  I will have been going for 13 hours and in the first half, I was doing several things all at once, beating the dealines.

I’m feeling tired now. Two more hours and Sean will hit the sack, and I have the feeling that I haven’t seen him all day.

We don’t have time to talk – we went for a walk round that block. It takes 15 minutes exactly. I never knew that.

I’m starting to feel sensitive, notice things I wouldn’t normally notice.

Its fatigue.

I have another 11 more hours to go. Will I make it?

I’m starting to feel that the ‘story’ I wanted to tell is boring and stupid. That I’m not able to tell it as I want. That trying to beat the 30 minute deadlines is too hard.

I know many thonners put MP3 clips, put videos, or pics. That is undoubtedly a better way to blog.

But…I didn’t do this so that I could do surveys or pour out my heart for 24 hours. Not that I’m saying that isn’t fun or good. I gave myself this challenge because I wanted to make myself sit and write, because otherwise I never ever will. I’m not expecting it be good. I just know that Sean started out with photos that weren’t great and now he’s getting good contracts. If I can make myself start, I know I can carry on and one day, I might be able to achieve something I want to achieve.

30 minutes – need to post.