Want A Cuddle

I’m drunk.  Well if I’m not I’m on my way there.  Cept I’ve stopped drinking cos I just don’t like the feeling of it.  I’m pretty down tonight.  Feeling a bit better now than I was before.  Kiki could tell you how I was, she saw me with the tears streaming on webcam.  I’m just an overly emotional sook.  I get like this sometimes.  Good to clear out the tear ducts I guess.
I hate being down.  I decided to go to the IGA and spend $17 on mixers to mix with my German alcohol I already had in the cupboard, plus I bought some chocolate too.  It’s almost 3am.  I still feel like crap.  But I knew I would.  I only had 3 big glasses of the alcohol mixed with mountain dew.  Didn’t even get onto my other two bottles.  Might use them up tomorrow night.  Go out drinking to celebrate my new job.  It’s not like I’m gunna be able to do that Sunday night as I have my induction on Monday.

Basically I haven’t left the house in 2 days straight.  The first time I left the house was just before to go to the IGA to buy shit food to fill myself up on to only make myself feel worse than I already do.  Funnily enough the alcohol and chocolate has cheered me up, however temporarily.  I’m typing this entry in my drunk state so I don’t think I’m doing too bad so far.  I haven’t heard from my guy basically in 2 days straight, going on 3, so I’m getting myself down into thinking he’s over me already.  My mate pointed out we were pretty full on for the 3 weeks to start with seeing each other every single day that of course this was going to happen.  One day was weird enough but two it just feels like I’m being ignored.  His phone’s been cut off, but even when he’s been online or I’ve called him, it seems like he’s not interested, or he’s over me already.  And the stupid, stupid thing is we’re not even boyfriends yet.  So why should I be made to feel the way I do?  Why should I even be feeling down like I am cos I haven’t seen him in two days.  And then I think 2 days really isn’t anything.  I won tickets today to a screening of "Milk’ at Southbank on Sunday night, and I asked him if he wanted to come with me, and he said he’d love to, which is cool, but gee that’s not til Sunday!

I think I’m tired, drunk, emotional and probably too clingy for my own liking right now.  I guess I just miss the guy and want a cuddle.