Refreshed

I feel really good and refreshed today.  Even the shirt I’m wearing I feel looks good and feels good on me.  I downloaded the new live messenger not that I even use it lol and it comes up with the laptop camera in order to take a new photo automatically, so I took one and I was surprised at how good I thought I looked in it.  Maybe purple is just a good colour on me.

The housemate has gone out to get laid again lol.  Glad he’s settling in here and to Brisbane well.

I admitted to my landlord tonight that I’ve been put off sex completely lately.  He’s always hinting to me that I’ve really slacked off on the sex-front lately, which is nothing unusual coming from someone who frequents sex venues every weekend.  He grew up in the era of beat-sex and pre-internet/grindr hookups and still does em today.  To me the idea seems crazy.

So I told him about my friend and that I’d gotten tested on Tuesday morning.  It’ll probably come back to bite me in the arse, as does any information I usually leak to him.  See, I just don’t trust people at all.

I read back through my astrological profile yesterday before going to sleep – the one I copied here.  It made a lot more sense to me and made me think it really was like me and not being bitchy to me like I originally saw it was.  I wonder how people figured out exactly how peoples personalities would be.  It even comes with a graphic start with lines all over it, and mine are all crammed into one compacted corner of the circle.  I asked my landlord if that meant my life was meant to be boring, and he said not necessarily, just that it’s more close-knit and intense.  To put it in perspective, my new housemates graphic is lines all over the place, covering the complete sphere.  I still dunno how true it is, but I’m opening my eyes up to it more.  It’s basically telling me as long as I open my eyes to more around me, the more I’ll let in, but really, c’mon, isn’t that like everyone?

I had an interesting dream today that I’m sort of remembering parts of.  It involved the hottest guy I "know" back on my facebook account.  It was about me and this guy (who I’ve never met in person or even chatted to online) hanging out and actually getting along really well.  I mean, in reality, he lives in Sydney, is too young for me and he’s probably a 10 to my 7, but still, the dream had a positive message and felt like it had a lot to do with me getting rid of my facebook account.  Maybe saying I can actually make real friendships instead of a thousand lot-less-quality ones.

Maybe that’s why i feel so much better today, despite it being nighttime and 12:30am.  I’m wide awake and am actually considering walking to gym.  Friday night I’ll have to find the routes avoiding all the drunk people.  Or maybe I’ll wait until the sun comes up.

Thank-you for your notes guys.  I can’t express how much they mean to me.