Perth back to Brissy!

Writing an entry when you’re emotional is never a good idea, but then again it is – maybe the truth comes out more.  I’ve been thinking so much today (my last day of holidays), especailly about Micheal.  It’s been so long since I’ve seen him now, and I think i’m having withdrawal symptoms or something – I dunno what it is, I know I miss him.  And I know I miss Sam too.  i can’t believe i actually met him!  Perth was so awesome, i didn’t want to leave there.  But I did miss Brisbane too much, so I’m glad I’m back here!  i went out clubbing Sunday night and it was totally packed out because of the public holiday on Monday.  I’d never been out on a Sunday before, but it was really fun!  i went by myself, as usual, which sucked, cos I can never find anyone who wants to go to a gay dance club with me.  I usually head in alone, and try to come home alone lol.  Gee Sunday I had like this gross 30-something year old bi-guy tell me i was cute and im like ‘thanks’ and took off as soon as he went to get a drink eerrrgh.  he actually asked me, when he came up to me, if i was straight or bi, and i laughed at him and said ‘im gay!’ haha.  Then i met this really nice 22 year old (well he said he was 22 but most gay guys lie about their age for some reason).  We talked for a fair while til the club closed, and he offered me a lift home, and i refused at first, but he insisted and so i agreed.  he seemed genuine and nice so it was cool.  His car was an ’04 Holden Astra, and the power in it was unbelievable, i was thrown back in my seat.  i think he was trying to impress me.  Turns out he sells cars, so he knows a fair bit about them.  I told him i was seeing someone, and he knew that before he took me to my place, and he said it was cool.  He seemed very blokey.  i actually can’t believe he was gay because I never would have guessed it if he hadnt have said it.  Anyway we exchanged numbers in case we wanna hang out again in future.  it was a change in the way that most people who seem interested in me at the club are younger than i am, and he was older, so it felt really different.  I dunno why, but I knew he seemed shy but he was edging his way closer and closer to be on the dancefloor, so i said ‘hi, my names Matt’ and he seemed to open up a bit.  Weird considering i’m usually the shy one, I guess I’m getting better around other people like me.  There were so many cute guys there on Sunday, but Micheal wasnt there because he was sick, but he’s all i wanted to be there.  Ah well can’t win all the time.  Speaking of winning, i went the the Wickham to play pokies to waste some time and turned $8 into $50!  Considering I’m not used to gambling it made me really happy!

I don’t wanna go back to work tomorrow!  I have to get used to how everything works again!  Ah well wish me luck! 🙂  love yas!

-matt