note on the table…

I tried to write an entry last night but Open Diary wouldn’t let me in! AH well, I’ll type it now 🙂 I got home from work last night to find Luke away and a letter on the table. Rather than explain it, I’ll type it out for you guys and myself in case I ever lose it – I really don’t want to.

Hey baby,

I was just cleaning today and thinking about you (I do that a lot hehe) and I have been thinking about how amazing these last two months have been.  Words can’t describe how amazing you are.  YOU ARE AMAZING.  You are the most beautiful person I have ever met….and I can’t believe I get to hold you and kiss you…I’m so lucky to have you in my life.  Everytime I look at you I have to pinch myself to see if I’m still dreaming.  I love having you in my arms when I sleep and having you to talk and laugh with and make love to.  You blow me away baby.  All I want to do is make you happy…I AM SO LUCKY….I never thought I would meet someone like you….

Everything that we have to face now….we don’t have to be afraid because we have each other and that is all we need, just to trust in each other and God.  I’m not afraid anymore because I have you darlin’.

And I don’t want you to ever feel alone babe….And if I’m ever away from you, I will be thinking of you always.  This is for you to hug when you feel alone and I’m not there in person.  So there will always be a part of me with you if you need it….he’s kinda small and you might squish him but that’s ok hehehe….

I know you are afraid of this, and that’s ok, I understand…but I’m not…I want you to know that I love you.  You’re beautiful

love your boy, lukey xxxxxxxooo

ps. i am out if you wanna come, pls ring i will be waiting with kisses.

So yeah that’s what i came home to last night!  I t was such a surprise!! The thing I could hug when he wasn’t there-he was referring to a cute little teddy bear he bought me – it has a red love heart on it with the enscription ‘lil darling’.  It’s so cute.  I hugged it all last night!  And I awoke this morning with Lukey hugging me.  It felt so nice.  i have no idea what time he got home!  I get the feeling it was late this morning haha.  Obviously I didn’t go out, I didn’t feel like it after finishing work at 9:30pm and not getting home til 10pm.  So yeah i’ve just gotta work today and then i get THREE days off!  woohoo!!  Cos my new roster starts next week and I’ll be working Tuesdays-Saturdays, so therefore that means Monday off!  yay!  What will I do with myself.  Every day off is just more temptation to spend the money you just earnt haha.

I’m seriously thinking of bullshitting my way through to Optus.  I mean I’m still paying for my dsl internet connection at the old place, but unable to transfer it cos the phone line isn’t in my name where i live now.  I can’t help that!  We go through reception and there’s no way we can have it in our name.  We have to pay our phone bill and electricity the same time we pay rent, that’s just how it works.  I’ve already rang Optus 3 times trying to get it transferred here, cos at the moment i’m paying for dial-up AND dsl, because to cancel dsl in a contract, its a $300 fee – there’s no way i’m paying that til the contract ends in October.  So if i get the guts, i’m gunna ring Optus on Monday and crap-on to them that the phone line IS in my name – only THEN will they transfer it.  I might get in trouble by reception if they try to connect a DSL line and there’s already one here, but I figure I can always ring up and cancel my connection with Optus before they do so.  It’s just so annoying knowing you’re wasting $40 every month plus paying for call costs and dial up internet – grrrr so annoying, i can’t keep affording this, so maybe lying will work out good?  I dunno i guess I can only try, as bad as I’m gunna feel lying to them.

Lukey’s still asleep.  he’s got today off, lucky bugger.  I got tomorrow Sunday and Monday off, and of course he’s working.  Last Sunday was the first day we got off together, and seems like it might be for quite a while.  Luke likes the idea of me doing Tues-Saturday cos he never gets Saturdays off, they are just too busy at Lonestar, there’s more of a chance of us having a day off together.  It’s funny, I work with a guy named Taylor at my work, and Luke works with a guy named Ben at his work.  Taylor and Ben are best friends.  Luke was telling me that Ben goes to him ‘My best friend works with your boyfriend!’ – hahaha, how amusing – haha i just typed ‘amazing’ i totally forgot how to spell ‘amusing’ – guess I don’t use the word that much, kinda like ‘mediocre’ or ‘bumtwat’ hahaha – although Luke and I laugh our heads off at the SBS lady on a Fast Forward dvd "…directed by, Kim Bumtwat" haha.

Well i should have some breakfast and get ready for my last day of work before 3 days off! woohoo!  The Osbournes hosting the AVMA’s? bahahahahaha, let’s see how long it takes before Ozzie says an obscenity 🙂 love you all!

-Matt