letter from Luke

I usually find that I never really want to write a diary entry cos I’m too lazy, or it’s late and I just want to go to bed, but once I start, I seem to be alright.  MTV has just played ‘Hollaback Girl’ by Gwen Stefani twice in a row, how weird.

Today was alright.  I was looking for things to do most of the morning, so just went on Billyheads and checked up on the forums.  I had a message on Mogenic and i went there, and it’s good to see they’ve FINALLY got the new site up.  It looks pretty cool!  I hope it takes off cos it looks cool.  i read a coming out story about a gay Christian, and gee it was so good.  I’m glad someone wrote something about that.  Mogenic seems to be an awesome site for any young gay guy who wants answers to whatever the heck they think is happening to them.  There’s always someone who’s been through what they are going through.  I actually met my close friend James off that site, and he’s oriinally from Dalby.  he rang me a few days ago, was good to hear his voice again.  We couldn’t talk long though as Lukey and I were going out clubbing.

Luke’s in Toowoomba again tonight, out at his family’s place.  I hope he had a safe trip there.  He’s off to the doctor’s tomorrow to find out if there’s anything wrong with him.  I hope there isn’t, it’s kinda scary stuff.  I’ve just been trying to be reassuring, telling him everything’s going to be okay and he has nothing to worry about.  I wrote him a letter last night, which I know wish I’d typed out so I had a copy of it, but he would’ve read it at like 4am this morning, and he took it to Toowoomba with him.  There was a letter for me when I woke up, it was so sweet.  This is what it said,

Hey Darlin

thank you so so so so very much for your letter babe that was so sweet and amazing and brave of you to write.  I will be reading it a thousand times today.  Babe I have never been so content & excited for the future & proud of who I am in my life since I have met you.  I know sometimes it doesn’t seem that way it is true.  I know everything is going to be fine.  I’m so glad you are my better half darlin.  Every second you are near me I feel so loved and protected.  i can’t believe I found the sweetest, kindest guy on earth… With God babe we can do anything…. I will see you on Friday, my beautiful man, I love you, – Lukey

I’m gunna miss him tonight that’s for sure.  Think I might hug the pillow.  I should get some sleep.  2 days of work to go.  I’ve realised lately that I count down the working days and try to prolong the weekends, yet i seem to get bored on the weekends – damn that’s annoying.  Hope my holidays arent like that, although I can see that they might be.  I wonder how I’ll go without Lukey when I’m away then.  Gosh I don’t really wanna think about it, I guess I won’t go for long. 

It’s like colder tonight somehow.  I’m wearing long pants and a long sleeve shirt and i’m still shivering slightly.  Extra blanket on the bed tonight, hope I don’t sleep in.  Take care guys.