is it possible to influence st8’s?

Today was a much better day.  I got everything at work done that I needed to do.  I didn’t worry about missing Micheal as much, but there’s always that bit there.  I really love the guy and it gets depressing we can’t see each other as much as we’d like to.  We’ve talked about it, but I think we’re both scared to talk about it cos we don’t wanna admit anything’s wrong.  When I get my loan approved I should be okay though cos I’ll be able to buy a car and go see him.  Ive just got to get over my scaredness of meeting his dad and his ex boyfriend, who still loves him.  It’s really weird.  A lot of my friends tell me I’m being treated badly and I deserve better, but when it comes to how I feel about Micheal it’s like I don’t even think about the bad things.  He’s really sweet.  He’s going to be working at Burpengary so he’s really excited about that.  I still havent put in my transfer form, I’ve gotta find another reference, and its hard to write one because as Milton closed down, there’s no-one there left to contact haha.  Hopefully Renate at work will be one for me. Colleen’s been really nice and has let me add her as one.  She’s going for a transfer as well, I think I’d miss her the most out of everyone at work, we’ve just really opened up to each other latlely and it’s been really good.

It’s amazing how much influence a gay guy can have on straight guys at work.  i was laughing my head off today, Shane was saying he’d ‘let a guy have a chew’ (i’ll let you figure that out haha) if he wasnt dating Lisa at the time.  That set Hayden off, saying ‘omg as if! i dont care who you were dating that’s gross’ haha and then there’s andy, who isnt exactly straight either but hey it was all fun.  Shane makes comments at me and wolf-whistles when i walk past and stuff, it’s really funny.

Anyways i gotta sleep, i’ll talk more later.  Take care!

-Matt