Inspirations

I just watched the Disney Pixar animation UP, and I absolutely LOVED it!  It’s probably even better than I think Bolt! was!  Haha, I’m really into my animations lately!  It’s put me in a kinda be honest with myself mood, even though the movie wasn’t essentially about that.  So that means time for an entry!

I’ve been productive lately!  And it feels good!  I’ve been going to work, getting my shifts over with, trying to do as much as I can to make the person on the shift after me not have to do as much work on their set-up.  I took over from Jess on Sunday and we finally got to talk over what happened that horrible night where I got fired from the other site for not showing up.  I explained and she said it was all good cos she liked the extra money staying back anyway.  I noticed she was doing a few things different at our site though that she was just used to doing at her site, because that’s just how the wanker of a manager there likes things done HIS own way, and she was surprised when I said she didn’t have to do it.  We changed over and then she asked me, ‘So I guess you’re going to do dips now?’ and I said ‘nah I do em at around 3am whenever it gets quiet.’  I think she was stunned cos she thought every site did it the way her manager wants things done – by getting there half an hour early, taking time out of your own time to do shit that really doesn’t need to be done.  No other manager does that except him.  I told her him firing me was the best thing that could’ve happened, but I do miss working with her.  She is a stunner of a chick-  SO many guys hit on the poor girl, although I think she’s used to it lol.

J rang me two nights ago, after messaging me when I was at work saying he needed to talk to me.  Of course my mind went into battle-stations wondering what the hell was wrong.  Anyway, I got the shift over with and he rang me that night, well I rang him and left a message and he rang me back because I was on my way to work again.  He said that he’d met this guy when he was here last out clubbing and this guy was really into him, and he said he thinks he likes it. 

I mean, I guess I knew something was up.  He was nowhere near how he used to be on the phone to me, or even in person really.  I mean last time I didn’t even know he was in Brisbane until the last day he was here, and then he said that he’s currently in Brisbane right now, and will be here all week, but I’m doubting I’ll even get to see him because he’ll be at this ‘A’ guys house.  He let the name slip.  I said to him it’s funny he says that because I have a similar situation and told him about K, how he’s really into me and stuff, but I kept putting him off because I wasn’t sure what was happening with him (J).  J said he wanted to tell me about A incase he hooks up with him, and that he’s gunna tell him everything, like he’s not gunna leave the farm and whatnot.  Somehow I get an alternate feeling.  This guy will convince J to stay or do something that I simply cannot do in the same way.  J said he likes what he has with me.  I said I liked it too.

I’m pretty much not trying to deal with it too much.  Either way I keep putting K off.  He was over last week, as I wrote in my last entry, but he left and I kinda felt like he was blowing me off, even though I had to sleep.  Maybe my mind’s jumping to conclusions.  All these guys with different motives, and I don’t even know what mine are.  Just, so annoying.  I just want everything to be okay; normal; at peace.

Having said that I had a really interesting conversation with this elderly lady at work.  At first i thought she seemed quite rude, asking where David was (the other guy who does night shift who’s been there for ages) like she wasn’t impressed that I was serving her.  I think I got on her good side though by giving her a half-price pie and then she seemed really intruigued when she asked what else I did besides this job and I replied ‘I’m trying to get into uni and study psychology’.  The woman must’ve been in her early 60’s – actually I know she was because she said she was 61.  I kind of thought something was strange about her, and after I explained what I was going to study and why, after tossing and turning over so many areas I wanted to major in, she laughed and told me that she’s bi-polar.  I had to laugh.  The irony.  I knew something was strange about her, but she explained to me how she can remember things that aren’t really important but can’t remember the things she should and what she did during the day.  I said that maybe one day I can help her explain that.  Haha.  She eventually went on her way, telling me to make sure I tell her how I was going.

So it was a strange situation.  Like I had to prove myself to her for her approval.  But her, along with a bunch of other things I can’t explain, has got me really excited and motivated again about studying this degree.  My mate Benji was telling me on the phone that he reckons uni is just like a full-time job.  If you put the effort in and put about 40 hours a week into your study, you should pass your course.  He said of course there are exceptions where people still fail, but 40 hours should be at least the minimum.  Wow.  so I’ll pretty much have a uni full time job and a work full time job lol.  Well, nearly – I usually do around 32 hours there.  Pay day is tomorrow and I should get a pretty good cheque cos of working so many weekends in a row, so I’m SO looking forward to that.  2nd or 3rd of December is when I get my offer, and the 4th is my birthday.  What an amazing birthday present that would be.  I realise I also have to consider my other options in case I am not offered a place.  I will definitely see what else I am able to study if so, even if it’s a few shitty short-courses.  I just have this minor inspiration to be a student again, although I feel like I’m in for more than I’ve bargained for.

So yeah, technically I have two weeks left of living in this house.  I applied for a GORGEOUS place today off an online ad.  It’s the 21st floor of a highrise with 200 degree views.  The asking price was $200 a week and I thought surely this can’t be legit.  Anyway so I applied to it, actually asking the advertiser if the price was legit lol.  Damn, for the pictures I saw I’d SO pay that!  And it has a sauna, spa, GYM and pool!  Wow!  I can’t imagine I’ll beat the other thousand applicants for the place, but why not give it a go.  It’s only one bedroom, and I really want somewhere to live with Ryan again, so even if I get to inspect the place, it has a study so I’ll see how small the study actually is.  I did ask if more than one person could live there.  For some reason, I don’t even feel like I’ll get a response to my response – like I’m not even dignified for that place, because it’s luxery.  But if that price is real, wow, it’d be a dream!  Never lived in a highrise before!

I wanted to go to the coast today, but of course it’s been a miserable day.  Well notreally, but it’s been raining in patches and overcast.  But I was walking home from the gym this morning and I realised my arm was getting really hot from the sun shining through a break in the clouds, and I was starting to sunburn, yet at the same time it was pouring rain.  It’s quite rare I get to see a sight like that and it just amazed me.  The sunlight shining off the droplets of rain, giving me sunburn and yet I was getting wet at the same time.  "Nature" I said to myself, shaking my head.  There’s the meteorologist coming out in me again – another subject I really want to study!

I’ve been doing well with gym again, making use of the last of my goodlife membership.  I dunno if it’s my mind playing tricks on me, but it’s kinda cool looking in the mirror after a shower, thinking there’s a slight difference.  It’s stupid after such a short amount of time, but I keep telling myself, ‘One day kid, one day.’  And my legs have stopped caining from the 2 days of initial leg press I did, thank god.  I assume they will hurt again the next time I do them, but not as bad 🙂  I’m liking this.

Life’s good at the moment.  I feel like it is.  I guess I’m a little worried I need to find somewhere to live in the next 2 weeks, but I’m kind of excited yet nervous as hell about the long-term prospects.  I kind of wish my boy situations would sort themselves out, but I guess that can only happen when something I want to happen with it happens.  That didn’t even make sense.

I’m going to leave this entry with a video I saw to one of my absolute FAVOURITE songs at the moment.  The video just blew me away and it’s probably made it my number one now 🙂  Hope you like it!

Hope you’re having a good week guys!