I Wanna Go Wild

Who Cares About Love – Anna Vissi

Your love hurts me
Your love kills me
Your love burns me
Your love freaks me
Your love breaks me
Your love spins me
Your love bends me
Your love drills me
Tonight I am breaking every rule
Tonight I am done with playing the fool

Who cares about love oh oh oh oh
Who cares about love oh oh oh oh

Tonight I am gonna have fun
I’m gonna go wild
I’m gonna go crazy
I’m gonna have fun
I’m gonna go wïld
I’m gonna forget all about you

I’m gonna have fun………
Who cares about love oh oh oh……..

I cannot wait to go out  tomorrow night.  My Saturday has been planned, well sort of, since earlier in the week.  I’m working 5am-2pm tomorrow, then I’m coming home, getting changed, going to the city/Southbank towatch whatever Riverfire thing is on at that time, if anything, then I’m meeting a workmate and some other friends of hers for panckaes for dinner,  then we are headed downstairs where she has the room booked out for us for the night, and we are gunna drink and chat and who knows what else.  She reckons there’s about 30 people coming, so it willbe good to socialise with the people I know, cos I’m doubting i will know many people there, unless she’s invited our whole store i guess.  I wonder if she’s invited Dan, cos if he’s there I’ll probably hit on him if I get drunk enough lol.  Prob good he won’t be there too cos GOD it’s so bad to want someone so bad for so long and you know you can never have them.  Apparently his girlfriend is a bitch – I could treat him so much better 🙂  he said ‘how’s it going?’ to me at work yesterday and even him acknowledging me nearly made me faint haha – yes, I am quite obsessed with this guy, and have been for the last 2 or 3 years, however long I’ve been working there 🙂  If he doesn’t know I’ve got a crush on him he’d have to be completely daft lol, cos everyone else in the store does 😛

So yeah, get through one more day of work and then I can party the afternoon and night away.  It’s 9:00pm as I write this so I’ll be heading to bed as soon as I’m done.  Probably should get a good night’s sleep.  Tomorrow’s plan is to pick up some vodka/cruisers after work, so I don’t have to spend as much when I’m out, but who knows is that’ll happen.  i hardly ever go out, and I just wanna try to enjoy myself, cos whenever I go out, clubbing or elsewhere, I always assume that the night is going to be shit – I guess that way I’m not surprised when it is, and am when it isn’t.  So let’s hope tomorrow night will be fun, because I really feel like I need some fun.  I haven’t hung out with my regular friends all that much, so to hang out with friends who I really only ever see at work, should be fun, and I’m gunna try not to be so shy, so I wanna fuel myself up on the booze so that side of me comes out more easily 🙂  It’ll be good if I have that nice boy to perve on though, but if not, and even if so, I’m gunna go out clubbing afterwards.  i figure it’ll be a pretty big night clubbing on account of the Riverfire festival.  It sucks I’ll miss the F1-11 and the fireworks cos I’ll be inside at the party, but really, who cares – I’ve seen em every year since I moved here i think.  I wanna have some fun dammit!

I’m really enjoying gym.  I’ve been every single day since I joined, except for the week i was sick, so what’s  that?  3 weeks?  I think I’m getting some results, but then again I have days where I look in the mirror and put myself down again that there’s really not much difference.  I guess the difference between the mirrors at the gym and the mirrors at home persuade me.  And at the gym, there are muscly guys there who really made you look pathetic with their huge arms and biceps lol.  I’ll get there one day.  Skinny lil me 🙂

But I must say, I think I’ve seen more naked guys in 3 weeks than I have in the last 2 years, in those change rooms.  Not that any were worth checking out (except that one personal trainer who is cute but he only got down to his underwear lol) but they really have no care about stripping down to their nackers.  Christ!  i couldn’t do that – best i can do is walk out there in my boxers after showering after my gym session so I can put the rest of my clothes on.  A lot of guys walk out with the towel wrapped around them, and then put the underwear on beneath the towel, then remove the towel.  i tried  that method yesterday and the whole towel just fell off before I’d gotten my boxers on!  Luckily there was no-one in the change-room then – if there was I wouldn’t have even attempted, but anyone coulda walked into the room haha.

I’ve got a bit of a routine happening.  When I get there and change, I stretch, then do 10 minutes of rowing, 100 ab-cruches on the machine, then 50 bicep-pulls (25 on each handle), then I run for 30 minutes on the treadmill, then I do 200 (100 sitting, 100 laying down) weights with a 15kg barbell (don’t laugh, that’s good for me at this stage!), then I’ll play around on whatever other equipment looks appealing at the time.  So I’m there for over an hour every day.  I’m just wondering if the  running is doing me good.  I love running and it gets my heart racing and I wanna do cardio for the heart, but I don’t particularly wanna lose weight.  So I’m a bit skeptical about that, but I’ll continue to do so because I enjoy it and i can watch the video clips to the music that’s playing, as the lead on the earphones I bought isn’t friggin long enough grr lol.  And I always work up such a sweat when I’ve been running, which is great cos then I can feel the workout.  Weights i can feel the strain on the muscles and stuff, cos I’m good at pushing myself to my limit ( I think anyway).  Maybe i should do less running and more weights, but then again I like my plan I’ve got happening so far, and I should fill up on carbohydrates.  haha what a contradiction – most people do to the gym and cut DOWN on carbs, but I wanna have more to fatten me up!  So yeah I reckon I’m getting some results gradually, but there won’t be before and after shots until quite a few months yet 🙂  if any!  God definitely not the before shot anyway hahaha.

So yeah I like gym.  They are friendly to me at the valley one, the staff as I check in, and I’ve  seen a few hotties there.  I haven’t been to the Chermside one since it started, although my PT has been trying  to contact me the last three weeks, and they’ve deducted the PT fee from my bank account, so I should take advantage of those 3 half hour sessions.  I’m just a bit scared about

taking them, and if the PT will be good so I’ll feel like I need more, when in fact there’s no way i can physically afford them on my wage, now that I’m payig more rent and stuff.  Funny how all the bills seem to arrive at once as well lol – guess it is end of the month.  I’ve decided I’m gunna get down on my internet usage – as in not have a ‘Power’ limit but a smaller one.  Sure I won’t be able to download as much, but I have to be sensible here, until I get into a good rhythm.  I hate the idea of $250 coming out of my account in rent every 2 weeks, but it’s good I don’t have to think about it too as I’ve set it up automatically.  So this is why I’ve gotta be sensible about tomorrow night by not spending much, but then another part of me says ‘you’re so cautious all the time with money, who fucking cares, you know when to stop, just go with it!’ – I so wanna have that attitude tomorrow.

Oh and Facebook’s kinda addictive.  Thanks to those of you who added me so far 🙂