I know, but I’m not meant to

 Tonight’s weight:  88kg.

Wow.  If I wasn’t so tall, I’d be approaching heffa-status! 😛  But, this is why I wanted to weigh more, to match my height more and actually look proportionate in the mirror.

Some days I look in the mirror and I like what I see.  But when I take a PHOTO of myself in the mirror, and then look at the picture I’ve taken, I do not like what I see at ALL.  Like, wtf??  I know my phone camera seems to make items appear a little further away than they actually are.  I dunno.  I guess it just keeps me determined to look better.  In my case, the camera TAKES away ten pounds 😛

I worked tonight.  I did find it interesting that the manager asked the same guy who only started last week if he wanted to work tomorrow night.  He said yes.  Didn’t even ask me.  It kind of made me laugh inside, as though my manager either knew I would say no, or just didn’t want to offer more shifts.  I don’t really care.  I just thought it was ironic, really, given yesterday’s situation.

After work, I went to the gym and did a pretty decent workout.  There was one other lady there.  Very rare to see a female there after midnight.  We were just both silent and did our own thing.  She had her headphones in anyway.

I’m trying to remember what I wanted to write about a few days ago, when OD was being a bitch, and of course now, I can’t think what that was haha!  Ohhhh life.  I know it was philosophical life-stuff, with my mind going crazy, which I’m sure it will the next few days.  At least I’m working part-time and not doing absolutely nothing.  God, I remember THOSE days – like 4 months of no working last year and all I could do was think and think lol.

I’m still deciding on what laptop I want to get.  I’m now even considering the Microsoft Surface ones because their prices were halved because they were considered a flop.  I’ll keep my eyes open.  I’m still typing on this laptop, so my typos shouldn’t be too bad.  My other entries have been on my tablet, so there’s typos everywhere haha.  Still getting used to that.  I’m liking the tablet.  It seems to keep me going every time my laptop dies, as I can only use my laptop for 40 minutes at a time, because I need to shut it down and recharge it.  I guess I’m just used to it.  I hate that tablets don’t support Flash though, so watching videos gets frustrating sometimes.

So, I found out yesterday from Ayden that Reece is moving out.  *Sadface*  Reece doesn’t know that I know, but he still hasn’t said anything to me about it.  Clearly he’s told Ayden.  Ayden reckons he’ll be moving out with Bonnie.  Bonnie is Reece’s faghag and best friend, who has been living here for the past two weeks.  The place she was meant to house-sit fell through, so, in Ayden’s words, she’s been freeloading here lol.  i don’t mind, she’s not too bad.  Her and Reece are really loud when they get together, and they are a bit messy.  I’ve had to clean the kitchen quite a few times from their mess.  I’ve noticed Reece gets way more lazy with Bonnie around.  He’s adorable though, and ya can’t hate him.
As for Ayden, well he seems to be in a good mood this week, so that’s good.  Give it another week and I’ll let you know if that changes 😛

I’m pretty sure my landlord doesn’t know about Bonnie living here, OR Reece moving out.  Even I’m not meant to know Reece is moving out.  I’m not sure whether to act surprised or not when he does eventually tell me.  I was a bit shocked when Ayden told me yesterday morning, but then again not really.  Of course he’ll wanna move out with his best friend, who is also a smoker.  They both just got new jobs also.  So much for the fashion student I got to know, that seems to be out the window.  But he makes use of his knowledge in his drag.  I think Ayden will be glad to get his bathroom back upstairs.

We had a storm tonight whilst I wa at work.  It’s been SO dry here that the watertank under our house is bone-dry.  I’ve been watering  the garden by hand just to keep it alive.  So the welcome rain tonight has been a real blessing.  I don’t know if it’s done much to fill the tank, but it was nice to not have to water the garden, and I hope it’s filled the pond up a little more.  One of our fish is huge.  I think it’s been bullying the other fish out of their food when I feed them.

Anyway, what a random entry.  I got a random text from a guy I haven’t hooked up with for many many months over the weekend, saying that he missed my big cock.  I assumed it was a drunk text, as it was sent at around 2:30am on a Sunday morning, and I didn’t reply until the next day.  I didn’t think he was still interested in that.  I guess I’ll see how that one pans out.  I’ve been good lately.