God I hate being so nice

All Good Things – Nelly Furtado

Honestly what will become of me
don’t like reality
It’s way too clear to me
But really life is daily
We are what we don’t see
Missed everything daydreaming

[Chorus:]
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to end?
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to an end?

Traveling I only stop at exits
Wondering if I’ll stay
Young and restless
Living this way I stress less
I want to pull away when the dream dies
The pain sets it and I don’t cry
I only feel gravity and I wonder why

Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to end?
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to an end?

Well the dogs were whistling a new tune
Barking at the new moon
Hoping it would come soon so that they could
Dogs were whistling a new tune
Barking at the new moon
Hoping it would come soon so that they could
Die die die die die

Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to end?
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to an end?

Well the dogs were barking at a new moon
Whistling a new tune
Hoping it would come soon
And the sun was wondering if it should stay away for a day ’til the feeling went away
And the sky was falling on the clouds were dropping and
the rain forgot how to bring salvation
the dogs were barking at the new moon
Whistling a new tune
Hoping it would come soon so that they could die.

I dunno what’s wrong with me.  I’ve had a pretty good weekend so far, even though I worked today and I haven’t even done what I’m doiing tonight yet, but for some reason, I’m feeling a little bit down.

It’s just this weird feeling I get every so often and it seems to happen in the hours before I’m about to go out and have a night on the town.  i think it’s number of factors, such as a night out means spendin a lot of money, but I am suppose to be going out tonight for an ex-workmate’s 21st birthday bash in the valley.  I think I may head in.  I went and bought alcohol before and just took a swig as I started this entry, so hopefully it’ll calm me down a bit and not make me as feeling down as I sorta am feeling at the moment.

Thing is, I don’t actually like drinking alcohol all that often.  My housemate thinks I never wanna have a drink with him even when he offers, but the simple fact is, unless I’m going out with the intention of getting pissed or tipsy, I see no point in consuming alcohol.  They say it relaxes people, but I’ve never noticed.  Maybe it does, who knows.  I got a new sort anyway, only reason I bought it – Midori and lemonade.  I figure I’ll catch the bus in later on, but I don’t think I’ll stay out too late – depends I guess hey, on how much i drink.

I went to Chermside after work today to meet up with two girlfriends of mine and we were meant to go shopping together.  I was to meet them at 3pm at the bottom of the esculators going towards the gym.  I forgot that, and went to the wrong esculators – i went to the ones at the food court, and was standing there looking like an idiot for ages waiting for the girls to turn up.  Figures, I thought they’d pike on me.  It was then I realised I was at the wrong esculators.  15 minutes later I rocked up at the other esculators and there was no sign of them.  It sucks cos I don’t have either of their numbers.  I did have Rach’s but somehow I lost it – like I wrote it down but didn’t oput it in my phone.  We were all going to chip in money to buy Tash a really good 21st birthday present, but as I didnt see them, that didn’t happen.  Whether they were there or not I don’t know, I didn’t see them in hte shopping centre, but it is a rather huge shopping centre.  So I did my own thing.  Big W had a one-day-only 10% off sale for woolworths staff so I took advantage of that.  i bought a mirror (cos I don’t have one in my room, and a hair straighener.  It’s only like a $50, but was the most expensive one there.  I ain’t going all out on a $300 GHD one like my ex has.  Geesh.  So yeah that’ll be interesting – I have no idea how to use a hair straightener properly, but it’ll be fun to mess around with it and see what styles I can come up with in the privacy of my own room.  Haha privacy, what’s that!  Bryn keeps coming in my room – knocking and then opens the door right away.  One of these days he’s gunna catch my jerkin the gherkin, but seriously I’m over it – bit of fucking respect wouldn’t go astray.  He only dcame in to ask me about whether a computer he saw was a good deal or not.  It was a 512 ram, 20G for like $600 second-hand and I told him he’d be silly if he actually bought that.  20G’s nothing, but then I figure at his age he really wouldn’t be using that much.  he reckons he’s gunna pay me to teach him how to use it.  I’ll show him the basics but he’s gunna go to an actual learning class for the rest of it.  Thank God, dunno how much of that I could handle.  God I wish I wasn’t so nice sometimes.  I find it really hard to say no, when no harm can be caused from the request.  If its something I really don’t wanna do then I’ll tell the requestee to fuck off or whatnot, but people asking nice stuff I’ll do it more often than not.  Unless it’s a derro asking me for money in the city in which I either ignore them or just say ‘sorry don’t have any’.  God they shit me.  I used to give em money but jesus.

i noticed the Australian Governments set up the ‘No-Not-Call’ registar, to limit the amont of telemarketing calls citizens get on their home and mobile phone numbers.  What a great idea!  I wont even answer my home phone anymore because I’m sure that every time I do, it’s a fucking telemarketer.  And the thing is, I feel bad hanging up, unless I’m in a shit mood, then I will.  Bloody hell.  yesterday I had some lady with a deep acc

ent telling me I had won a holiday to some Island in the pacific.  Ummm yeah, I WOULD have won a holiday had I fucking ENTERED a competition to win it in the first place!!  Jesus, how stupid do they seriously think people are!!!

I went to Caboolture last night (where Keith Urban grew up – bitta trivia for yas all), to see The Highwaymen perform.  My mate and I got lost trying to find the fucking place, but we asked this really nice lady at a servo for directions and she knew exactly where to go.  Woohoo!  It was quite entertaining!  Turns out it was a Johnny Cash tribute show with ‘special guests’ and the special guests were a lady dressed up as ‘Loretta Lynn’ and ‘Dolly Parton’ – ues for the Dolly act, she put the whole fake titties in and all lol.  God she was good. 

Sitting there listening to this (which was part of the Caboolture Urban Country Music Festival) made me think of back home where I grew up on the farm, and how vastly different country life is to city life.  i was speaking to my mate about it on the drive back to Brissy at 10pm last night, and it’s incredible, it’s like the city and country are two different worlds sometimes.  Luckily my parents were technically technicologically-advanced (wow say that three times fast!) as they had tv with Austar (cable) and internet, but a lot of people in the country don’t even have that!  Christ I woulda been so bored without the TV and internet, when i wasn’t riding motorbikes and stuff or doing school or helping dad or working. 

So I’m glad I went to that little performance.  God the sports club where it was held was packed!  So many people and so many poker machines.  I think we should be like Western Australia and make gambling illigal.  Haha yeah right, the market’s too huge.

So who knows how tonight will turn out.  I don’t actually have Tash a present of my own as the shops closed.  i only had 2 hours before the shops closed after I finished work.  Beats me what I’m gunna give her.  Beats me if I’ll even go in.  I might, it’s pretty hot sitting here at home and I do have a three-day weekend.  my manager was nice and gave me Tuesday off so I can have a three-day weekend like everyone else.  Yay!

Hmmm these Midori and lemonades are nice.  I probably shouldnt have too many if I’m gunna catch the bus in, cos that’s a rough ride and my stomach has enough trouble handling alcohol when I’m not bouncing around.  Well, if it was THAT bouncing around I wouldn’t have any trouble handling it 😛  Alcohol tends to make me hornier than usual I think too.  Just something I’ve noticed.  Oh well, I’ll be hanging out with girls mostly tonight.  Depends if they go to the family, which they most probably will, and I’m suppose to be there tomorrow night so I’ll probably pay some friends a visit at the beat (They are heading there directly after the Pink concert’s over).  If Luke’s there it should be interesting.  We still aren’t talking to each other.

Have a great long weekend all my Aussie favourites!  And have a great normal weekend if you’re elsewhere 🙂