Flames in the microwave

"I Believe In You" – Kylie Minogue 

Don’t believe you know me
Although you know my name
I don’t believe the faults I have
Are only mine to blame
I don’t believe in magic
It’s only in the mind
I don’t believe i’d love somebody
Just to pass the time..

But I..i..i.. believe in you
And I..i..i.. believe in you

I don’t believe that beauty
Will ever be replaced
I don’t believe a masterpiece
Could ever match your face
The joker’s always smiling
In every hand thats dealt
I dont believe that when you die
Your presence isnt felt

But I..i..i.. believe in you
And I..i..i.. believe in you
But I..i..i.. believe in you
And I..i..i.. believe in you

And if you ever have to go away
Nothing in my world could ever be the same
Nothing lasts for ever, but together til the end
I’ll give you everything I have again and again

‘Cause I believe In you, I believe In,
I Believe in you, I Believe in,
I Believe in you, I believe in,
I believe in you, I Believe in,

‘Cause I..i..i.. believe in you
And I..i..i.. believe in you
But I..i..i.. believe in you
And I..i..i.. believe in you

I believe in you, I Believe in
I believe in you, I Believe in
I believe in you, I Believe in
I believe in you, I Believe in

I believe, I believe, I believe in you….

I just panicked.  I was cooking frozen vegetables in the microwave (which I’ve done heaps of times), when all of a sudden the microwve lit up in a firey yellow, and i turned my head to the left in shock to see flames billowing inside the (still running) microwave!  I panicked only a second trying to decide how I should handle the situation – like I was thinking, ‘will i electrocute myself if I try to turn off the microwave".  Well I couldn’t leave the flames billowing cos anything could’ve exploded at any minute, so I ripped open the microwave door and thank goodness the flames died down.  I spent the next 5 minutes opening the doors and windows and turning on the fan trying to get all the smoke in the room out.  Luckily I knew to take the battery out of the smoke detector, so it couldn’t go spaztic on me.  I just stuck it back in and now it keeps bepping every few seconds, and it’s getting really irritating.

Luke and I had a huge non-verbal fight the past few days.  We were both really pissed off at each other.  I was pissed off with him because, despite all the relationships I seem to have helped with by offering the advice of being honest, I felt my own boyfriend wasn’t being honest with me!  In bed the previous night, I knew something was up and I asked him, and Luke being stubborn like he can be, wouldn’t tell me.  I asked him, ‘does it have to do with me? Is it bad?’ – he answered yes to both these questions, and wouldn’t say any more.  The next day at work I was so paranoid.  I spent the whole day trying to figure out what the hell I’d done wrong.  Had he read my diary and read something I didn’t like?  Or had he cheated and felt bad about it?  I had no idea.  Turns out he was pissed off with me cos I was angry with him.

Last night I burst into tears and pleaded with him, asking him what I’d gone wrong.  He explained everything then and I felt really bad.  His mum had been hounding him about how the gay life was a lonely life and it had really upset him.  We had a really good D&M from that point on, well into the night – it felt so good!  We reminised from the day we met, how I was perving on him, how his ex caught me, how Luke actually started going out with that freak in the first place, and about a heck of a lot of other things.  We were completely open about everything and just encouraged each other.  I let him know I’m always there for him no matter what.  We talked about how weird it would be to be friends after all we’ve gone through, but we know that could even be a possibility one day.  We then proceeded to have the most amazing sex ever, and he was even talking dirty to me!  It felt a bit strange as I’m not used to it, but it sure was interesting! lol!

Work was good today, even though there were only 2 of us on all day!  Me and Dan!  Dan had to start at 8am because Damien (our manager) had called in sick, so I found out when I arrived.  Dan had been trying to ring casuals all day, but none of them could work.  All made up excuses like ‘trying on clothes’ and ‘uni assignments’.  I mean, trying on clothes? C’mon!  It’s annoying we don’t have the most reliable staff, so I was by myself from 5-9:30, having to do eggs, milk, face up and loading before the close of trade.  I got most of it done besides loading, but hey that’s gunna happen when you don’t have a casual to help you get it done.  I hope they are happy with my face-up.  I got it all done except cheese, but I was proud of how it looked anyway.

Luke just arrived home!  He went to the movies with a friend from work.  He went and saw ‘Boogieman’.  I haven’t even heard of it, but Luke explained that it was like a horror movie, and it was scary, right up until the end.  I hate scary movies.  I’ve seen The Ring 1, and 2, and The Ring 1 was scary but it’s also one of the most amazing movies I’ve ever seen.  it was just so clever.  I’d love to see the Japanese version one day, if I was able to understand it that is.  I guess it has subtitles, right?

Gosh, I’ve been on the countdown.  I’ve got 7 more working days until my holidays start!  It’s so exciting!  2 more days this week, Friday and Saturday, then Sunday and Monday off, then work Tues, Wed, Thurs, Fri and Saturday will be my last day for a month!  I really should decide what I wanna do hehe.  I think I might go to Melbourne, even if for just a few days.  I know I’d miss Luke so muc

h, so I’d have to talk it over with him I guess.  I might even go to Sydney, I dunno yet.  Then there’s the option of Perth again, which is a safer option cos that’s where I went last year, and where Sam is, but I’ve already seen Perth ya know?

Anyway I know there’s heaps more I wanna say, but it’s hard typing what I wanna say when Lukey’s home, even though he knows I’m writing a diary entry.  He’s so awesome.  I love him so much.  Take care guys!!