Day 2 — Your crush / significant other

Let’s see how I go writing this entry haha.  Yesterday I was in absolute tears by the end of it, so hopefully I can compose myself this time 🙂  Should be fine.

This is a toughy.  I have so many crushes I find it hard to pick one out of them all!  Gotta pick one…

Dear David.

I know I’ve only hung out with you once, but I have never seen a more beautiful guy in a LONG time.  My crush on you is based purely on physical attraction, as we’ve only hung out once, so I really don’t know you how I’d like to know you.
You seem to be a lot of fun, and always happy, and I love hanging around positive people. 
I am sure that my crush on you is non-reciprocated.  That’s probably just be being self-conscious, as when I see guys with your look, I feel I am out of your league.  Like – you’re a 10, I’m an 8.  Unless I have that special spark that would make me attractive to you, I’d never have a chance.  I know that’s not the confidence you probably look for in a partner, but I get butterflies.  Even the time we met, I was so nervous, yet I think I did well not to show it on the outside.  You made me laugh, I made you laugh.  You said to contact you whenever I was up your way again.
I think so highly of you too, despite barely knowing you.  Your hotness and kindness makes me want to know more about you.
I feel utterly useless, having sent you a message admitting how nervous I was meeting you.  I should have just played it cool, as your no-reply to it has got me thinking that I fucked-up any chance with you.
I should learn to fake it til I make it, but then I have to remember that’s not me being honest with myself.
I really do wish I can get to know you a lot better than I do.  Find out what your type is and to see if I fit in.  Even so, if not, I’d love to try for a friendship, because I think you’d make a pretty good one mr.

From Matt xo