’bout to lose my cool

 Today my father decided to share another one of his petitions doing the rounds on facebook.  This time, one petitioning against legalising same-sex marriage in the ACT.  The petition is addressed to our Prime Minister.  The same Prime Minister that fuck only knows why the Australian population voted in.  But let’s not get into politics too much.  As far as I’m concerned, he will never be my Prime Minister.
Anyway, so upon looking at the petition, all the names listed on the side are, you guessed it, religious nutjobs.  Fuck I hate religion, every single thing about it, albeit the comforting feeling it gives some during grieving times.
I swear to God (haha), I am about to blow my top at my father.  Yes, peaceful me who likes to avoid all conflict, is about to lose his cool and yell at him to "get the fuck over it" and "stop pretending gay people don’t exist!"  I mean FUCK – these are people’s FEELINGS we’re dealng with here, and yet because some fucking book says so, this bullshit continues.
I even commented on dad’s share, asking, "What do you have against two people who love each other?"
Of course it was ignored.
I was surprised actually.  I thought he’d delete it also, but so far it’s still there.

It’s so hard, and today I seriously wondered to myself if I should just remove my father from facebook.  My dad never talks to me on there, but my mum does.  But mum will always side with dad, after however many decades of marriage.  I’d like to think these days that she’s the more lenient of the who parents, but I’m probbably just living in vain hope.  I understand it must be hard for them, and I always have, but there comes a point in time where I feel like I should just give up.
I was even considering going out to visit them on my days off this week, but after today’s little episode, that’s been thrown out the window.  I’m so pissed off.  Yet again.  I’m even sick of writing about it in my diary because after 10 fucking years of being out, the record is well and truly scratched beyond repair.

I went and saw a movie by myself tonight.  My friend bailed on me last minute, so I decided to go anyway.  I saw "Now you see me."  I couldn’t decide which one to see, so asked facebook 15 minutes before the session started, and most people sided with that one, so I did.
I’m glad I did.  It kept me quite entertained, and even I’m annoyed that I didn’t see the ending coming haha.  It cheered me up too yay.

I got home and copied the petition and made a post publically on facebook, which I’ll probably regret in the morning, but you know what, right now I really couldn’t give a rat’s arse.

Thankyou for the kind notes on the previous entry, btw.

Tomorrow will be a better day.