just so

is everything that we are doing just a distraction? i mean, i dont know what to make of this. you are amazing, and i know i like you so very much, but how do you feel? how do you really feel? i mean, i know you tell me you like me and all, and i know you are willing to put effort into this, but what exactly am i to you? am i wasting my time? am i ever going to be what you really want? are you gonna be willing to talk about some things that you have been avoiding? i am more than some play thing, i want to be more for you. i understand that things dont just go away in a matter of six months and i know sometimes it takes so much longer to get over things, or to feel okay about them. i just want you to be true to me and i to you. i want to know exactly where i stand and what you want. i want to know what you are expecting, if anything.

i want everything to be just so
a spark of light everywhere you go
shine on your smiling face
and make everything be okay