Why do I?
Why do I let my heart feel things so easily? Why am I so taken by someone so quickly? Why do I so often set myself up to fail?
He is about as special as they get. He works hard, is devoted to his friends, and even if he never spoke a word, his smile says everything. I am drawn to him. My life is not roses and cherries on top. I haven’t won the lottery. I am not tall, slender, with long blonde hair. I don’t have the greatest IQ. I often take two steps forward to find myself ten steps behind, BUT…. my life is great. I love where I am at, where God has put me. Sometimes he says "no," as I look around bewildered, thinking certainly I am doing his will, but somehow his answer always comes to me later in a better, sweeter answer.
Life is too short to let the good things pass you by without a word. I have heard mixed things — "if you like someone tell them, more times than not a guy is to shy to tell a girl." "Don’t ever tell a guy how you feel, if they like you they will come to you." Honestly, no one wants to be hurt. Everyone should know they are loved, whether a friend or more.
I might have a year to live, I might have 70, but regardless I don’t want to spend that time alone. I have so much to offer someone. I am kind, considerate, optimistic. I do not worry. I am patient, a great mother, and will make an even better wife. I am independent, but insecure. I am not jealous.
I want to tell him how I feel, but "nothing." I am too afraid to open myself up to such hurt. 🙁 I think I love him!