Interview/flight/etc. etc.
On May 1st I have two interviews — TWO!!!! One is for the Lonetree store in Colorado, the other is for the Thornton store in Colorado. There is 29 miles between the two stores. We don’t have two stores that close anywhere. I really do want to go to Colorado. I want to move up in the company, and for some reason I feel like I am being held back here in Ohio. I didn’t want to share this, but I don’t want to forget. The store director is kind, and notices my hard work. The leads, send me from one area to another, because I am the only one that can work in several different areas. Managers in other areas come and talk to me, and tell me I would be a good asset to their team, but… but…. My manager and I have never connected. We had a good phone interview, and then nothing. He never responded to my e-mails, wouldn’t tell me when to come to Ohio. He said his e-mail didn’t work. Then when I got here, he talked to me once, and since then he has been virtually absent. He doesn’t care where I work, or where I go, what I do. He talks to everyone, but avoids me. I am his only full-time cashier, and I believe he wishes I would just be gone, transfer to another department, or even leave. When I was on medical leave several people asked me how I felt, not him. He came, said, "do you have a release?" That was it. When I ask him a question he walks off saying I will be back. When I try to give him something, he says see me when you are done with that, then he is in a meeting or gone. It hurts. It really hurts. I almost feel like he feels threatened by me. He interviewed me for the Lead position in our store. It isn’t a great position, but it is better. In any case, he said he would know the next day. Never did he tell me no, or why, he just hired someone else for the position. This person was less enthusiastic, didn’t care as much, and no one wanted her to be chosen, because she is one of those people that is good at her job, but not a friendly person. However, my manager and her hit it off from the beginning, to the point I believe if he wasn’t married he would take her out. He is not mean to me, not verbally. He does not give me negative criticism. He simply doesn’t talk to me at all.
I am surprised that I got the two interviews since I have been on medical leave. I hope it does not effect me getting a new position. Now let me elaborate. I believe I have already been offered the Thornton, Co. position and that this is just a second interview. I am not really certain. All I know is I am almost certain I will be going to Colorado by the middle of June.
I hiked two and a half miles with the girls today. It was fun, but quick.
I went to my appointment. It was just for testing. I didn’t see the doctor. I felt really good when I was there, so I was upset, because I want them to see me when my heart rate is 150, when my heart is skipping a beat for no reason, so they can tell me what is wrong and how to fix it.
Mom and dad just bought Alexandra a ticket to go to Texas on the 23rd for $114.00. It was the cheapest I have found them, but I could not afford one. Seconds after I purchased the ticket they went up to 250.00. My kids can only fly southwest, because they are under 18. Most airlines do not do underage travel, if they do, I don’t like the feedback. I only fly my children Southwest.
Kevin leaves at 6am to go on a boyscout hiking trip. I believe he said they would hike over 20 miles in the course of two days. Hearing 20 miles sounds like a lot, especially knowing they will be caring 10-20lb packs or more on their backs. I think it would be more doable if you hiked five in the morning five at night, and the same the next day, but I believe they will be making the whole trip all together 500 boys all at once. It sounds like a great chance for the kids to make real true friends. I am glad Kevin is getting to go on this as a troop leader. He is a man of many talents. He called me tonight as he was headed to the church to water down the tents and get them ready to be toted. I miss him. I want more than a three minute conversation with him, or an evening out. I guess that is what love is, when you can’t be around someone enough. It has to be a slow process though, because I will scare. I have been alone for so long. I don’t know how to share all my time. I don’t know how to give everything I have to someone else. I want too. I just don’t know. That could all change with just one look, or one touch, I am sure.