January 10, 2013

 Today is the first time in a while that I’ve woken up looking forward to the day. Jesse and I had a talk last night and both feel reassured. What a relief. I think things are finally going to be the way they used to. I love him so much. 

My hand feels weird right now. Like it’s on fire or something. If I make a fist it just burns like hell. WTF
 
I went out with some coworkers to celebrate one of their 21st birthdays. NEVER AGAIN. In the same night I lost my keys and my phone, and I found my wallet in the garbage the next day. Whoever found my stuff didn’t bother to turn it in or answer the 100 calls I made from Jesse’s phone hoping for an answer. I checked everywhere I went, retraced my steps, checked city hall and tore my apartment apart searching. Luckily I just happen to have a copy of every key I lost or I would be freaking out about that too. Had to report my phone lost and ordered a new one with the money I don’t have. I decided I’m kicking the booze for a very, very long time. The difference this time is that I actually mean it. The idea of drinking makes me want to puke. 

I am heading out on a mini-vacation next week, Monday and Tuesday. Jesse and I are renting a cabin up a hot springs near here and snowshoeing all day Monday-Tuesday. I am excited- no cell service (not that it matters for me) and just us. I really really need to get away. It will be perfect. 

Better get on with my day. Maybe run my hand under some cold water or something. Seriously, what is happening?!