my pain
Trying so hard
Cant let you see my pain
This hurt that I harbor deep in my soul
Tears are not an option
Holding inside a flood of emotion
Staring into your unfeeling eyes
The brightest blue Ive ever seen
Reflects back to me
What I cant bear to see
You dont care for me
You probably never did
I can sense my heart breaking
As my broken dreams shatter around me
Gazing back into your face
Not allowing a trace of sadness to come through
A mask of calm acceptance
Is all you will ever get from me
You wanted to hurt me
Tried to make me break down
As you twisted the knife farther into my spirit
It doesnt matter that I sit alone in my room
Crying until my throat is too tight
Gasping for breath
And searching for a way to escape
It doesnt matter that I cant live without you
Cant make it a day without thinking of you
Longing for a love that was never truly there
Just so that you never see the tears I shed
Or feel the grief that wont let me be
I can live with a broken heart
I can live with shattered dreams
As long as you never know
How much you hurt me