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my room is finally  almost done. i have bene living here since august but just barely today i unpacked my last box. lol maybe i just didnt wanna admit i am actually living with my paretns again! UGH!! I wish i was done with school, was getting paid a nurses salary, and living on my own. i want my life to start damit. i feel like i am drifting no where. p and i are wonderful though for a good note. no fighting really and just good. last night iwas there and i got there a little late so we just relaxed together at home. he is getting sick so best to do nothing. we relaxd and watched SWAT. awesome movie i loved it, and it helps colin ferrel H-O-T!!! 🙂 LOL no matter how terrible phone booth was swat made up for it. 🙂 MMM 🙂 after swat i took a shower then we went to bed. we talked in bed for awhile. it was a good talk. just about us and our past and laughed and just whispered before going to bed. i think these are the favorite times for me with him. i love just lying there talking to him. we did fool around some but not much cuz he is sick and we were both tired. this morning i woke up and he was already gone to work. i missed my morning cuddle time i love so much. 🙂 This is my last week of freedom before my grandma and great grandfather come to stay with us for like two months!!!! OMG I dont know how i will survive! I will be roomless to top it off since i will give great grandpa (from now on we will call him what i call him. papa.) my room. and me and grandma will be in the lving room. i will have no where to talk on the phone every night. guess i will have to go to the car fdor some privacy. and dealing with all the questioning from grandma on where i am going is gonna get old after like the first week!! UGH> only thing i have to possibly look forward to is the vegas trip p and i may take as  a b-day gift for ourselves. i think we may forget gifts and just spend a weekend in vegas relaxing, gambling, eating great food, and drinking. sounds like the perfect gift to both of us. 🙂 I really hope we do go i wanna really bad now!!! It would be good for us. no big plans this weekend. just hanging out. talked to chris a few nights ago. fine there. firends mostly. hes really busy at work this time of year and i am not too keen on this kid thing. i will be only 23 in a couple of weeks and i still feel like a kid myself. why pretend that i am ok with a kid in my life? but i will have fun with him for now. 🙂 just fun though. and just one more thing. last entry (or the one before that, not sure) i got an anonymous note that i deleted because it was hurtful and rude. whoever it was could just kiss my ass:-) I am not a slut. but… if fooling around occassionally with someone that you have true feelings for makes me a slut then i guess i must be a big ole’ whore.  if you have even read half of my entries you would know my history with p. its not some random hook up. thats it for the rant 🙂 tierd now so goodnight 🙂 just thought i would leave you with a wonderful picture. lucky woman who snagged this guy and got him to marry her.:-)