frustration

i am very stressed today and on the verge of just losing it. not with p but with family. my whole family is driving me crazy. i spent the afternoon on the phone with p whining to him about it, more like actualyl screaming at him aobut it. ugh they are annoying, like the whole world revolves around them. i widsh i didnt live here so bad right now. i jsut need to get away. i need a break longer then a day or two i need a good week off!!!! i love my new look to this diary though. its soothing and calming to me 🙂 Things i need right now. been with p a lot this week. been decent i guess. little tift yesterday but i move on just annoyed he doesnt care about me. like if we horseplay and i get hurt i want him to wonder if i am okay not to ignore me because i am crying. thats not cool. last night he twisted my neck and i started crying and he didnt even care thata the kinda thing that annoyes the crap outta me. i need to get my room clean today and tomorrow so i gues si shouldnt waste too much time here right now. i just need to vent and i wanna vent but u all probably dont need to read it cuz it wont be ncie. take care and beybey