I give up…

*sigh* I don’t know what to do anymore.

Daniel broke up with his girlfriend. Like the other day he was texting someone telling them that like he broke up with her. Then he said something like "We might get back together if she goes to a closer school." Or something to that basic affect. That kinda stung. But, I mean we’re not together so I can’t say anything or show anything can I?

Just now they were messaging each other and I caught some of the conversation and idk she was talking about like something sexual and kind of flirting with him still.

*sigh* I thought maybe he’d be done with her for like good. What if he still likes her or still loves her or something?

What if he doesn’t feel anything for me anymore?

Fuck what if I became just a fuck buddy?

Oh no…..

Damnit!

…I guess I should’ve expected it huh? I mean we have sex with no strings attached. It’ll go one of two ways. Either we stay fuck buddies and nothing more…or we both care deeply about each other and more grows out of that. What f its going to the just fuck buddies thing.

If he doesn’t care about me or like me anymore…I don’t think I can keep up the us having sex thing.

I don’t have fuck buddies. I have sex with people I genuinely like and have deep feelings for.

Please Goddess don’t let him think of me as just a fuck buddy.

*sigh* well…thats my life right now. I’m just gunna go cry myself to sleep now…

I’m sleeping in his sweater…maybe thats a bad idea…it’d just make me think of him more and remind me that I probably mean like nothing to him.

Fuck this

I knew I wasn’t special

ugh good night

*Sandra*

just d

April 2, 2012

You are special. You just need to find the partner who realises how special you are. ~ Hugs ~

Lohey

Hey, thankyou so much for your note! I really appreciate it and even though I’m not the best person for relationship advice right now; I think the fact that Daniel and his girlfriend broke up because of distance shows that their relationship isn’t substantial to either of them enough to withstand a little distance. If they need to see each other, likelihood is that it’s based a lot on intimacy…

Certainly, if they were in love they wouldn’t be so nonchalant about it like “maybe we’ll get back together if she moves closer” Maybe you shouldn’t be upset about it and see this as an opportunity to see how he feels towards you. Don’t allow him to use you as his fuck buddy, you’re worth so much more and aren’t existing for his sexual needs!

Maybe aim to spend a little more time with him whilst not in bed, surely he has it now his girlfriend is out of the picture… Just keep your head up and have the respect for yourself to not accept being used by him! If you feel strong one day, let him know how you feel… here if you wanna talk too, big hugs and good luck!

Probably should refrain from having sex with someone that you don’t already know is committed to you before hand, and you could avoid all this drama. No judgment here, but i think that would solve a lot of your problems.