Starting a new way

Well to begin with I have been trying to break away from being co-dependent.  It’s strange because as a younger person I felt so alone, and relied on myself.  Now I have one person who is my best friend that I feel so lost when she’s away for one thing or another.

I have issues with abandonment, rejection and recently discovered I am addicted to an opioid.  So I been turning to my faith, because ever since I was 7 or 8 years old I relied on the fact I could end my life.  I made many attempts over the years.

If I seem scattered it’s because I have traumatic brain injuries.  I need to figure out how to be okay no matter what is happening, or no matter if I am alone or not.

When I was 15 years old I had a diary on original site, and it wasn’t a good experience for me.  Mainly because I was desperate and I am not anymore.  I just want to be ok even if I am not happy.

HAPPY THANKSGIVING 🦃

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