If I could change the world

Day 5: Something you would change about the world
Day 6: Something you would like to change about yourself

Figured I would lump these together.  First, the world, and perhaps this is something that is more in regard to the US (I’m not sure how it is in other countries), but I would like people to take more personal responsibility.  I find that in this day and age, people are very quick to blame something else for problems that are happening. 

Example, blaming the media or teachers for misguided children.  I think that’s a bunch of bullshit.  One duty as a parent is to guide your child so that he or she becomes an adult who can adapt to certain situations, do what’s right, and become a responsible human being all together.  This is what my parents did with me.  Sure, I did things wrong and I went down the wrong path a couple of times.  But overall, I have always been a good person, and have found my way back to the right path every time.  I take responsibility for my actions and know that I may not be able to control the world but I can control my reaction to it, and that’s what I do. 

In regard to something I would change about myself, this one is REALLY difficult because I’m so damn awesome. LOL.  Juuuust kidding :-).  I think I would take away some of my nerves and self-consciousness.  Don’t get me wrong, I’m confident in myself, and I’m great in a social situation.  But there are times when I find myself not able to let loose as much as I would like.  The most immediate situation that comes to mind is karaoke.  I LOVE to sing.  And I have a pretty damn good voice.  But when I sing karaoke, even at the neighborhood Applebee’s where everyone is pretty mediocre, I get nerves like crazy.  The feeling I get when I sing karaoke is the same feeling I get in certain situations with new people, etc.  Unless there is alcohol involved.  That helps calm my nerves a bit lol.

I know I mention Travis in almost every entry (I know, BARF right? Lol) but I think one reason I enjoy our relationship so much is that when I’m around him, much like when I’m around my family, I can be a total goofball.  I am absolutely comfortable around him, and I’ve never experienced a relationship before where I can really let my hair down and not fear judgment in the slightest.  I can act like a little kid (which he thinks is freaking adorable lol), I can be messy, I can be lazy, I can be bat shit crazy… it doesn’t matter.  It’s nice.  Takes a lot of stress off of my shoulders and just makes things more fun 🙂

Well, that’s all for now.  Guess I better finish up some work 🙂

R