Past. Past. Past.

 Have you ever been in a situation where you have to decide on whether to attend in your elementary class reunion or not?  I was browsing some photos over the net a while ago and I saw a couple of pictures taken in our school’s first grand alumni.  And I just remember that I before it happened, I was having doubts on attending or not (even though at the end, I wasn’t able to attend because of my work.)  Funny, but it really brought me back to those memories with someone.

One of my classmate on elementary became my boyfriend on high school but things didn’t work out well between us back then so we broke up. Just thinking about seeing him again and be with him in a group of people makes me feel like it’s getting myself in an awkward situation.  Some of our friends knew about what he had, but others don’t.  And the thing I hated is that his cousin knew, and she still seem to dislike me because of that past.  (I really don’t know why.  o_o)

But I had to admit it, I don’t like seeing him because it’s making feel a loser for losing him.  It makes me feel insecure and bitter, and I hate feeling that way.  And it will just make me think how my exes have a happy relationship now while I remained single. (Aaaawww.. hahaha! Here I am reminiscing again.)  Well, maybe that’s the reason why I feel this way, because I am single… but at least somehow I’m happy.  And sometimes, remembering the past makes me happy.  He was a sweet guy and I’m glad to see he’s happy.  I just miss those moments with him which I know would never happen again.

I wish on the next reunion I’ll be able to attend and see him again.  I would love to be on that awkward situation wherein we are both there… but no strings attached.  We’ll laugh together and be friends. ^_^