020: I wish

I guess it is hurts day for me today. I am still finding it hard to believe that he’s gone. I was somehow hoping his mom would say that it wasn’t him, but she didn’t. She confirmed it to me this morning that everything was real and that J is gone. If I am feeling this sad right now, I truly can’t imagine how his mom was feeling.

I wish it was just another scam, another fake news, another prank… but we have to face it. It’s real. J is gone and the hopes of meeting him again one day in this world will never ever happen. I don’t even know why am I feeling this way. Why it had me feeling so sad… there’s no way I would have known he was going through something. There was no way. But I really am feeling so sad about it.