The Path On

Hello once again.

The Path On – it’s been a great journey so far, filled with many thrills and spills, twists and turns, some leaving me with many regrets at times as well as thoughts on what could have, would have, might have been. Others, leaving me with good feelings of hope.

Having walked the path for long enough, at this point in time, I came to ponder the question, "Have I lost my way?"

It seems somehow that having been trying so hard to pursue somethings, other things are left neglected. Have I been living in the shadows of the messes that i’ve made? Maybe. Priorities seem so fuzzy at the moment. What is important to me before may have changed and vice versa.

Am I trying too hard? Should I be trying so hard? Honestly, at this point in time, its worn me out. I am totally exhausted. To a point, i don’t really care anymore. Or to say the least, maybe i do, but i have no more energy to bother. What’s worse is to be putting up this false front, that everything’s fine. It honestly is very tiring and its eating me. So stop the false pretense? Easier said than done.

Don’t look back on yesterday? Now that’s something thats consuming much of my energy too. Everything seems to be a constant reminder of yesterday. I try my best to ignore it, and move forward. But its tiring.

There’s still one thing missing in this puzzle. One piece i need so damn badly. But i somehow still am not able to find it. Everything else is perfect. I just need that last piece to complete the picture.

Maybe i should take the backseat now. Chill out a little. And let someone else steer the wheel. Who knows where this path leads to.

Don’t look back on yesterday.

Peace
-Juls